Anyway, I've been really busy with investiture choreography, music mix and training sessions. Investiture is just a week away and we're not 100% ready. I can actually cry at this point but I'm sure we'll pull through as a family. I can't wait for rehearsal later today and tomorrow. With the NYP Silat family, all my worries just disappear. Except for one, which is my BFF. I still have to face him and pretend like everything is okay.

He has been there for me since the start. There's definitely that part of me which desperately wants to kill him,but the rest of me is saying I should stand by him. We made a promise at the start of our very close friendship, and there's no way we're going to break it. He may have his issues and horrible attitude, but he's my bff. He knows how to control himself around me. He knows how to treat me right and not take advantage of the trust I've given him.

When I'm down, he knows. When I'm hiding something, he knows. It's like we have this telepathy skill. He knows when exactly to call me and check on me. He knows exactly what I feel like having for lunch/dinner on that day. It's just that connection we have that's making it hard for me to break this tight bond we have.

Moving on. My heart had set out on an adventure and landed itself in a mess. Till now, I've yet to figure out how I could fall for this friend of mine. We've only met for roughly 3 months. He's a totally different kind of guy as compared to many out there. Even my best friend, Haziq, thinks so too. The thing is, I don't there to tell him my feelings as I don't want to appear taking advantage of his current status. I mean, he had just broken up with his gf. However, things are much more complicated. He has trouble letting go of her. Somehow, it hurts me every time. I don't know why, but it does. Right now, I see him going through life as per normal and in good terms with her, but it's hurting me so bad that sometimes it bother my thoughts.

Oh well. Life goes on.