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Title: Out. Posted on: Friday, June 25, 2010
'Sup! Today is my bestfriend's birthday. If he was still living,he'll be 21 today. I guess God loves him more than we do. Happy Birthday bro, Muhammad Akid Bin Muhammad Faizal. I miss you. It's been 6 months since you left us all,since you left me. I've been seeing you in my dreams for the past few weeks.Is that a good thing? I miss talking to you and sharing with you all the troubles I have. Even when you don't have the solutions,you'll always make me feel better with a hug. I thought I've found someone to replce you. Damn,was I so wrong! No one can replace you. No one. You'll forever be my bestest friend,my brother,my gurdian angel. You'll forever be in my heart. Yesterday,as I sat at the multi storey carpark staring at the sky,my tears just uncontrollably flowed down my face. Exactly one year ago,we were there together,counting down to midnight so that you can finally blow the candles on the birthday cake I bought you. I still have those photos. I really miss you. Today,this morning,I went to your grave with the rest of the kakis and your family. I wanted to make sure your grave was clean. You should have seen all our faces. We all miss you,Akid! Even Incredible Hulk was shedding tears uncontrollably. Oh,Julie baked you a chocolate cake. I blew the candles on behalf of you,by your grave. There were exactly 21 candles. Each candle symbolises different impacts you've made on us and your family. You know,ever since you left us,I've been keeping everything to myself.I feel really uncomfortable to share with others,even my close friends. Sometimes,I feel like my mind's going to explode! But you should know me. I'd just let it all out during my trainings or just go for runs. I won't just sit there and wait till I go crazy and end up in Hougang Hotel. I'll feel better after wearing myself out,but I'll start missing you even more. Anyway,I'll be having my common tests next week. I hope you'll be by my side for every paper I take. I remembered what you told me last year,on the day before my first 'O' Levels Paper. You said,"I'll pray for the best. Just focus on the paper. I won't be there physically,but do remember that my 'soul' will be by your side." Now that I thought of it,you sounded like you could just send your soul anywhere you wanted,while your body was somewhere else. LOL! Akid,I miss you. I wish I could turn back time and made sure you didn't leave your house at the very moment where you had the bike crash. Then again,I can't play God. I'm not God. Allah Maha Besar. NO matter what,you'll always be in my prayers and in everything I do. You're the fire in my soul and the spirit of my determination. I love you dearly,Muhammad Akid Bin Muhammad Faizal! Inuka. I'll smile specially for you today.

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