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INUKA DOINKZ! Enjoys sports,dance(mainly hiphop) and photography. Dream big!. Live it up! Soar high,touch the sky. I know I'm not perfect,but I hope you like me for who I am. |
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Title: Drop it. Posted on: Saturday, July 31, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Happy 18 dearest Alisa! You're legal now. I hope you like the present I bought you. Topshop babe! How can you not like it,right? I know you know the price of it,but don't feel bad or anything. You deserve it. Sorry I couldn't attend the party,although I know I missed out alot of fun. Sadded! YOG torchbearer. 3rd day,10th August 2010. Estimated time I'd be running is 3.30pm. I'll be running along Pasir Ris Drive 1,just infront of Whitesands. Excited? Yeah,i guess. Oh,I got tix to the opening ceremony on the 14th August. Don't feel like going. Damn! Topshop-ed with younger bro Faris today. Splurged! After that was G2000. Splurged! Bro bought himself 2 V-neck tshirt,a pair of shoes and a pair of jeans. I bought a top for myself and a pair of shoes and a dress for Alisa. That was Topshop. Moving on to G2000. I bought myself a new pair of pencil-skirt and a blouse. Total expense,you don't want to know. Well,mum gave us shopping money and the green light to go spend today,and so we did! :D I heard NYP Silat investiture ran smoothly today. Congrats to you guys! Watched Fred's Armed Drill Parade 'cause someone recorded it. Yay! Nice one,bro! Sent Alisa's Birthday present,like a Santa Claus. HOHOHO! That's about it. Inuka. Smile! PS: Anyone wanna go take pictures of the fireworks display for this year's NDP on the 9th August,do text me.I'll be going. |
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Title: Guts. Posted on: Friday, July 30, 2010 |
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 'Sup! I'm wondering where my guts went. Somehow,it just disappeared. That confidence. It's gone! Timid isn't exactly the word to describe what I'm feeling right now,but just plain gutless! It's so hard for me address a matter like before,without feeling awkward or somewhat shy. Come to think of it,I think someone could have taken it away. That hole I'm falling into? It's getting deeper. What a way to end the week! Dinner cum Supper with Afie. Buddy till eternity,right bro? How sweet of him to treat me to Swensens! A walk at Changi Airport and a nice long chat with him. Awesome moment! Yana,you're so lucky to have him. He may be a Mat,but he's definitely not like the rest of the Mats I know. We stand up for one another,not because we're brothers or sisters from the same gang but because we know what true friendship is all about. Through thick and thin,we'll be there for one another. Btw,gangs and me,we don't 'click' that much. HAHAHA! Played the song "Sorry seems to be the hardest word" by Elton John and Blue over and over again while I was on the way to meet Afie. I swear,that song has magical powers! Everytime I hear it play on my iTouch,my mind just goes blank and I feel like tears were about to pour out of my eyes. Touched,but at the same time scary. The song brings back lots of memories. Funny how Afie was talking about it too,just now. For a moment,I thought the song was taking over the world or something,'cause Faris posted the lyrics of the song on his blog and has the song playing there too. Woah! Spooky.. Weekend. Packed! Saturday,I would be missing NYP Silat Investiture, Fred's Armed Drill Parade, Alisa's Birthday Party and gathering with the Baduts. All because of what,you may ask? All because of YOG TorchBearer briefing cum station allocation cum uniform collection cum instructions. 4.30pm till like 8! Power or what?! Sunday,I've offered to help two of my second cousins with their school work. One would be engineering mathematics,and the other would be primary school science and mathematics. That'll be in the morning till about 2pm. After that,I have to go to school. There's YOG 'full-dress' rehearsal. SCL students are required to cheer the flame during the actual event. I'm not exactly involve in that part,but I thought I'd just come down and have some fun with the laughing clique. I'll be doing crowd control,along with the other martial arts groups. I like! Security. Remind's me of the time I helped out as Security at a concert and gig. SingFest! Baybeats! I'm so going! I got the tix. For every single day! Saved up with all my might,and I'm satisfied. I still have $200 left over after buying the tickets. Baybeats.Anyone interested to go? It's free,no worries. It'll be held at Esplanade,as usual. 20th to 22nd August. text me if you want to tag along. Tomorow's finally the last day for July! Luke,all the best to you! You know,I know! And as for me,it's definitely not going to be a start of a relationship affair or whatsoever,but it'll definitely be a great start to my study engine. August just means study! YOG or no YOG,studying comes first. Sem Exam! Inuka. I smiled so hard,my mouth was like a capital 'U'. |
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Title: Light. Posted on: Thursday, July 29, 2010 |
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 'Sup! 2 days to the end of July. As the end get closer,thing's been improving tremendously! Projects are progressing really fast and really well. What better way to end the month with a wicked dose of laughter from our silly antics and also a wide smile from all the satisfaction? Thoughts running wildly through my mind. It's like a chaotic party in there,and maybe a theme park too. Brain's going through a roller coaster ride of emotions. July just seem to be mixed up,with both awful and awesome moments. Nonetheless, the loss which resulted to an open wound takes a long time to heal. I may seem to be happy and cheerful lately,but somewhere in the fist-sized heart is a deep cut which has been treated temporarily by a bandage or better known as friends. Ramadan is coming,and I have a freaking huge appetite to counter. 5 meals a day is totally not normal! I have serious doubts of me surviving the first few days of Ramadan without feeling hungry or easily tempted by food. Then again at this age, I know I should be able to control. I know I'll be able to survive the whole of Ramadan,like the many years before. Afterall,Ramadan is where we learn how to save up and understand what poverty is like. Sort of. I do have to confess something though. When it comes to breaking fast,I could eat a serving meant for 3 person. XD YOG is approaching. 15 days? I don't know. I lost count. I'll be running as TorchBearer on the 3rd day of the Singapore Leg. Most probably I'll be running in the East area,which is like my housing estate. I'm really excited,proud and honoured! But this isn't my first time,so the excitement isn't that great. Silat. Slowed down a whole lot ever since the Political Conflict began. I just feel like raising the white flag and just leave,but I can't bare to do that. That centre was where I was groomed to be an instructor under strict instructions of Abang Razali. When he was thrown out,I stepped up wanting to help the team retain our Champion title. Sadly,all thanks to the silly political conflict brought up by the team managers and some parents,the team is falling apart and crumbling down. I'm greatly disappointed. There's no way I can have a say in it as my opposition is made up of people who are way older than me. Respect the elders,remember? Oh well! Do what you people want. When it all falls apart,don't come crawling to me to ask for assistance in recovering and cleaning up the mess. I'm sick and tired of it! Tunggal-ed today. Taught Haziq,at the same time it was pretty much a revision for me. Haziq and Hidayah asked why I didn't join NYP Silat and when I was going to join them. Honestly,I don't know. 'Segan' is the term that best describes my feeling right now. It just feels weird. Trust me,that's usually not the case. Well,I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel again. Inuka. Smile always! ♥ |
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Title: Thought Posted on: Wednesday, July 28, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Have you ever been in a situation where you want something or someone when it's barely reachable? To add to that, people are putting thoughts into your head which dampened your spirits and determination to continue to go after it. Well, it's actually all in your mind. You are the only one who determines whether or not to continue to go after whatever it is you're chasing after. Believe in yourself. When there's a will,there's a way. Remember this cliche line? Debate. War of words. Something I find rather interesting to do lately,especially with a guy. Even the littlest thing could be the main subject of a debate like "Why do you think the cloud turns from blue to grey before it starts pouring?" Honestly,I think it helps your brain to think. Brain exercise,maybe? You'll get different opinions and start arguing over the right answers. I suppose in life, you've got to do alot of thinking,make mistakes and experience the unexpected before you can live a perfect life. Then again, nobody's perfect,no one's life is perfect. There are bound to have obstacles in your life,even if it is a small one. Each step we take is a test,a new lesson,a new experience and we are bound to make mistakes. It's just a matter of picking yourself up,overcoming them with confidence and continue to widen your knowledge. Even saying your last words and breathing your last bit of air is a lesson. Maybe not for you,but for others out there who loves you. I wonder if you people read the new paper lately, about TP students helping out a leukemia patient. I'm really touched and glad that,even in this cruel reality, there are a bunch of kind souls who knows exactly what initiative is. Cancer may be a deadly illness,but if you were to put in effort and the will to find a solution to treat it (not fully find a cure to it) maybe victims and patients have a higher chance of living the life they once had. Ever since I learnt that buddy was diagnosed with leukemia(she's gone,btw), I became even more curious about the causes and effects of the different cancers. I did research and followed buddy for her treatment at the hospital just to enquire more about it. It's amazing how cancer is like a magic trick. It may appear without you knowing. Abrakadabra! Having a heart. Who doesn't,right? Inuka. Smile always! PS: I LOVE THE PICTURE ABOVE! :D I miss doing ganda with NUR LIANA SHAILA!! :\ and ayah coreographing every step for us and us practising at the beach. That were the days. |
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Everybody needs somebody sometimes. 'Sup! No pictures,though they speak a thousand word. My mind's an empty field right now. Relieved after Teamwork&Network Presentation Video was done. Too tired to even start on revision for Basic Mandarin. Oh well! The week's been rather slow. Brain's been overworking. Heart's still healing. I just want July to end,and Hari Raya to come! I love the text message Faris forward to me this afternoon. It totally made me smile. I know chain messages are irritating at times,but this one isn't. A strong person knows how to keep their life in order.Even with tears in their eyes,they still manage to say "I'm ok" with a smile. Send this to a strong person. I just did. Change is coming. Karma saw your sadness & said hard times are over. If you believe,send this to ten people including me. Watch what happens in thirty minutes! Be honest & send this to anyone who made you smile this year :)Thanx for making me smile :) xox Life's back in order. Well,atleast for now. Inuka. Smiles! |
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Title: Fight. Posted on: Monday, July 26, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Tekken. Fight for honour. Fight for pride. Fight for revenge. Fight. Courage. Rage. I so wanna watch TEKKEN. The release is on the 29th July,if I'm not wrong. It's been 3 days since she left. The pain is slowly fading away. It won't fully disappear,I know. The thought of her just pierces my heart. The box she left for me is still unopened. I can't find the strength to even peak into it. Training-less week again? Probably. Today is Grandma's birthday. A celebration with a line up of awesome food. Too bad big bro isn't here to join us,but atleast he made a point to have a video conference with the family. Funny,real funny. Then there's Teamwork&Network project to complete. Thursday? I'm not too sure yet. My spirit's dampened. The will to fight is slowly taken over by my will to just shutdown. All those dreams I had of you,were fantasies far beyond amazing in reality. Inuka. Smile no matter what. |
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Title: Stare. Posted on: Sunday, July 25, 2010 |
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 'Sup! For each little mistake is a lesson. For each little tear is a memory. For each little dream is a fairytale. For each little prayer is a message for you. I love you. All those wrongs I've done,taught me a lesson. It made me stronger and wiser. All those tears I cried,were memories of what we used to have and what we used to be. All those dreams I had of you,were fantasies far beyond amazing in reality. All these prayers I made are hopes of you to be in a better place and for you to know that you're still part of me. Today. Awkward start to the day,with a confused mind still. Headed for Mount Faber Club House to Bowl at around 10am. Concentration was horrible. Score varied between 130-150 for the first 3 games. Pins were stubborn! Last 2 games was even worse! Barely hit the 100 mark. My mind was just not into the game. Decided to skip lunch,stupid move indeed! Dragged my family up to Mount Faber Park in the scorching weather. Hiked up a few sets of stairs. Mesmerized by the beautiful view and peaceful atmosphere. Got my mind back together. Next was Keppel Bay. Home of the rich and the luxurious. Yatch,Yatch and more Yatch! Uncle Greg wasn't in town so we couldn't crash his Yatch. Dad,in the other hand,forgot his Pass so we still couldn't access the yatch. Nice! Snapped a few pictures,but wasn't exactly in the mood. Dinner. Simpang Bedok. Couldn't decide what to eat and was extremely hungry due to the lunchless day I had. Ordered Bangers and Mash,and Fish and Chips accompanied by a bowl of Mushroom soup. Spize Supper Club,you people never fail to make my stomach happy. Night. Weather's awesome for sleeping. Eyes are rather heavy right now,but I've got to try to stay awake for a while longer. I need to get some important things done first. I think. Tomorow's going to be great,or atleast I hope it'll be. No practical,but there's SWP Presentation crap! PIC tutorial in the afternoon,at 4pm to be exact. Last but not least,KICKBOXING! Nabilah and Kelly,I'll see you both tomorow! To dearest Faris,thanks for the word of advice on your blog. I really appreciate it. No worries,I'll still be smiling aites. I'll always pray for her. :D To dearest Fhy who tagged and the few others who texted and called,like Lin Hui,Fred,Jaja,Naf,Rayhan and loads more,thanks many2! I appreciate it. I hope you guys pray for her too. :D Inuka. I'm still looking for the spark. PS: Anyone wanna catch a movie? |
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Title: Collapsed! Posted on: Saturday, July 24, 2010 |
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 'Sup! A nightmare I fear most,came through. It's gone! She's gone! Those last few moments together was the worst feeling ever. Shattered heart. Jelly-like legs. Confused state of mind. Lost! It's so hard to let go,but who ever said it was going to be easy? A month plus,I held all those pain back and those tears too. I stayed strong for you. You made me strong. You made me realise how harsh reality is. Thanks to you,I'm stronger than before. No one will ever replace you in my heart - my buddy,my life's guide and the light through my darkest tunnel. I can't bear to open the card you left for me with all the other stuff your mum passed to me. I'm not ready to read what you've written nor see those things you left behind for me,'cause honestly,I wasn't prepared to lose you. I miss you already,buddy! Al-Fateha.. Inuka. Your mum said you wanted me to smile for you on while you were burried. I did,but I couldn't control those tears flowwing down my face. Smile. |
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Title: Fly. Posted on: Friday, July 23, 2010 |
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 'Sup! The day came and left. The day Big Bro departs,leaving me behind. The only thing I'm looking forward to now is his return for Aidilfitri gathering. I miss him! It hasn't even been 24hrs since I last saw him. The warm hug goodbye. The streaming tears. I'll pray for your success in the States. I'll be waiting for your daily/weekly calls. I'll always love you,no matter the distance. Handy Plus. A torturous and deadly,yet fun game! Revenge is the key to the game! Always prepare yourselves with a pair of long pants or,the best would be thick pair of jeans. You'll definitely have a red thigh after the game. Warning: Laughing is uncontrollable! Just have fun. So,anyone wanna play? Tight,real tight! Schedule. I'm starting to hate that word. I'm starting to realise that 24hrs is such a short time. Many projects due in the very same week. How awesome is that? Multi tasking is like a never ending job. Posters,Presentation slides and report. Efficiency is the key here! Rush,rush,rush! Get everything done and over with as soon as possible. You'll be able to relax soon after everything is settled. I can't wait for that time to come. I can't wait for Semestral Examinations. Surprised? Don't be. It's the only time I'll be free from projects for awhile. A break from it for a little while. I'm looking forward to the examinations with my brains fully loaded with the notes. I'm so into the the studying mode right now. Common test was a definite joy for me! A big blow. I'm crumbling down. Buddy's condition is worsening more than ever. Hospitalised. I knew something bad was going to happen. I had this feeling for the past few days. I hate it. Uneasy feeling. I can't bear to see her right now. A moment just now was enough. I'm sorry buddy,but I can't control the tears anymore. Inuka. I can't seem to put up the smile anymore. You were the reason why I always smiled. You're right. Maybe there's someone out there that could replace you as my reason. But right now,you're the only person who mean alot to me. When you leave me behind,I'm sure it'll take a long time for me to find that happiness again. I can't stop God. Allah Maha Besar. I can just pray and hope you'll go to a better place. Amin. |
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Title: Road. Posted on: Thursday, July 22, 2010 |
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 'Sup! I've just realised how much pain I'm going through for the past few days,or maybe months. No matter how cheerful I am or how much I smile,deep down inside I'm hurting real bad. It's like someone just stabbed me in the heart. I only felt the pain like recently. Big Bro is leaving tomorow afternoon, when I'll be stuck in school. My final bid farewell would be tomorow morning,before I leave for school. What a nice way huh? To add on to all that,my sickly buddy's condition is worsening and I cannot do anything about it. I'm so helpless. I'm holding back my tears with all my might,but every time I think about it,I just feel breaking down. I'm not prepared to lose her yet. I'm just not. One can appear to be real tough and strong,emotionally, on the surface,but could be really fragile on the underside. Then again, some people just have a shield thick enough that not even an atomic bomb is able to penetrate it. They are able to keep most things burried within themselves and is hard to spot their weaknesses. I don't know,maybe I'm that kind of person. No one has ever spotted my weakness, neither can they predict my emotions if I don't portray it. Yes,it may be considered as a facade,but these facades are not like hypocrites. It's my nature to not want others to worry about me. I'd rather force a smile than to put up a gloomy face infront of my friends and just spoil all the fun. Unlike others,I don't give excuses whenever I'm feeling low or in no mood. I may be tired as most times,but I'll never, I mean NEVER, plaster a frown on my face. I will try as much as possible to smile, and hopefully the sorrows would just disappear. Life. Complicated life. Horrible life. Unfair life. Life. Well,that's life,no doubt. What's life without challenges? What's life without a little added spiciness? Too smooth a journey is never a pleasant ride. Too rough a journey is merely a test of your patience. You'll only be able to come across a journey where it's not too smooth or too rough when you come to realise that life's full of challenges and you're up for it. With preparation and determination,only then will you be able to have an enjoyable ride down your journey. You'll be prepared to jump a hurdle,without having any hesitations. You'll be able to handle all kinds of emotional and physical situations. Opening yourself up to the wide networking arena and activities will help you build confidence and ofcourse aid you in gaining life experiences. Those camps you go through in primary school and secondary school,they're actually the starting point of it all. Overcoming your fear of heights,that's just the beginning. The next challenge is to overcome life's greatest obstacle which is your mindset and your long list of goals that you want to achieve. Yes,that's the biggest obstacle 'cause you are the only one who determines whether or not you're going to keep your head in the game and reach for the skies. You define the road in your life! Inuka. Smile always! :D PS: I'm running for the YOG Torchbearer thingy on the 3rd day. |
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Title: Urgh! Posted on: Wednesday, July 21, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Things are different now without you always on my mind. Definitely better, but I must admit it hurts sometimes . What we had meant so much to me, just to let you know. But what’s done is done and I guess it’s time to let you go. Emotions are best expressed in the lyrics of songs,be it rap or just plain singing. I know some people like songs just for it's tune,beat and tempo. However,there are others out there who listens intently to the song for it's meaningful lyrics. The lyrics can,at most times,touch the hearts of it's listeners and the listeners can relate to the situation the song is potraying. I guess that's usually the main aim of song writers,yet not everyone realises it. Well,in two days I'll be far apart from someone whom I dearly love. This intense emotion I'm going through is not at all easy to cope. I try to keep my composure even though sometimes I feel like breakingdown. Then again,I know I've got to stay strong for the rest of my siblings and ofcourse for myself. Big Bro leaving for States isn't as bad as a loved one dying and leaving you behind for the rest of your life. I know that feeling. I hate that feeling. I'm really confused. I try as much as possible to keep my promise,of not shedding a tear, to a friend whose life is about to be cut short. July just suck,okay! Honestly,I so don't care about gossips. I don't see why people are so badly affected by gossips. Gossips are gossips,they aren't suppose to be real. They're like rumours,speculations and whatever that's in the same category. Girls definitely love to gossip and get updates on the latest gossips. I can't deny that it's interesting and will immediately grasp your attention,but who ever said that gossips are believable? Oh well! Love. Love tragedies. Love overload. Love complications. Love-denying. Love. It's easy as 1,2 and 3! I love you. Then again,it's so much harder to execute it perfectly. It's always easier said than done. Find the right one, get to know the person first,blahblahblah.. The rule for love will never change. The rule for life is forever changing. Love and cherish everyone around you. What about the other components of life? Like I've said,it's forever changing. It could be happiness or wealth or the properties you own or whatever that keeps you living. Studying mode on acceleration! Inuka. Smile always! |
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Title: Inception. Posted on: Tuesday, July 20, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Firstly,I didn't complete the paper the other day,yet I got an A for Mathematics for Life Science! Awesome much! That aside. Yesterday. Caught Inception with the cuzzens and brothers. Two thumbs up! I love it! Those who haven't watch it should really consider doing so! Today. Caught Despicable Me with Hidayah,Lin Hui and Hazirah at Jubilee after school. We got the whole cinema to ourselves! Well,almost. There was a couple who spoiled the moment. Anyway,the movie was awesome and so was the time spent with the peeps. Tomorrow is a mystery. But do we really know a great deal more about the past? Was walking down memory lane, Was walking on the beach, Throttling the feelings of pain, Keeping doubts out of reach. Had a look at the sands of time The hours when time itself stood still, Could hear distant bells chime, And I was walking while I still stood still. Felt the heat of the sun beating, Could sense an awe that the past left, Saw the sheath of life fleeting, Glimpses of what was there were best. Ah,memories. I feel really bad for not attending training,this whole week. I feel really awkward too. Ditching all trainings,from BQD to Silat to MT. Not going for training make feel really lazy,restless and tired so easily. Arms are itching to punch and legs are itching to kick. Then again,I did have altruistic reasons. I needed to study for ICT test,which was today,and Thank God I studied or I'd have screwed it up. I need to study for Maths quiz,which is on Thursday. Thursday,also,my group is re-doing our SWP experiment. Thus,explains why I can't go for BQD training this week. As for missing Silat and BQD,I needed the time to visit my buddy who's diagnosed with Leukemia and spend loads of time with her,and there's YOG training this Saturday which clashes with Silat. Worn out! Give me a call or text me,'cause I miss you people already. I know it's only a week,but a day without training is already torturing me. :D Aww.. 10 days to the end of July,the worst month of the year. Wait. July ending means that the end of the year is drawing near. Woah! Time flies so quickly. Alot has happened. Oh well! Inuka. Smile always! |
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Title: U-turn. Posted on: Monday, July 19, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Sometimes you've got to look back at what you've done just to see what went wrong Sometimes you need to make a wrong move just to see what is there to fix. Sometimes you need to step up in a fight just to see who will stand by your side. Sometimes.. I think it's time for me to make a U-turn. I need to right all the wrongs I've made. Life's a pain with all this crap! The politics,the hyporcrite and the ones who appear to be the light in my life when in actual fact,they're the 'cause of these crap! Ah,realising it at this moment. I wonder if it's a good thing. Only God knows what I'm feeling right now! Ditching training this whole week. Taking the time to study and chill and do whatever I felt like doing since the past few weeks. I just need some time off from some people. Meeting up with a friend whom I last saw 7 years back. He's back from Dubai and there's loads for us to catch up on. Do I miss him? Obviously. Long distance relationship/friendship is so hard to maintain. Thank God it's all over now! Common test results are out. Not bad! But,our class seem to be the worst among all the other PS classes. HAHAHA! Expected lah.. But we're the coolest class! ^^ IPS project,our class made the most impact. We made the other classes laugh thier ass off! Us and our crazy ideas! Admitting is one of the toughest thing I'm contemplating to do. Lying is such a pain! Hiding is too. Each day a mask,a facade. How long will all this last? I hate this feeling! I feel like talking to someone,but bestie isn't around anymore. I miss those days where he'd put his arm around me and we'll talk all night. Laughing at stuff which aren't even funny just so that I wouldn't shed a tear. Crazy days! No more comfy moment. I just realised how something so cliche can actually bring back alot of memories,be it sad or happy ones. Like "smile always". You hear people going around saying this or see them type it out somewhere,or in my case saying it to my friends and typing out in my blog. This tag line has stood by me ever since I met my bestie. I'll always convince myself and my friends to cheer up with just these two words. Some things are meant to be left behind,but for this one special line,it'll follow me till eternity. With just these two words,I'm able to make my friends cheer up. With just these two words,I'm able to ensure my friend's happiness. By simply smiling,it'll colour your life. I don't know about you,but these words are memories worth cherishing.  Rafiq(sapaw),thanks for checking up on me for the past few days. I'm fine. Appreciate it much! I'm not going to do anything stupid. I promise. You saw me smiling and laughing real hard on saturday right? Well,it goes to show that I know how to limit myself. Smile always,right? Inuka. Smiles! |
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Title: Know. Posted on: Sunday, July 18, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Yesterday's shooting session turned out to be a teaching&learning session. Met up with some of the kakis and headed for suntec to meet my dad and the rest of the fam. The tanks and all the other vehicles were lined up just outside suntec city before leaving for the parade ground at 1900hrs. We managed to take some nice pictures of the vehicles and the march past. Awesome location! Last but not least,we headed for Esplanade to shoot the fireworks. Honestly,it was very confusing as this year's fireworks display are shot from 9 different locations surrounding the Padang. Lucky for us,we chose a pretty good spot to shoot the fireworks. In the end,I only took 1 fireworks picture while the others were taken by my brother and friends. They wanted to try,so I gave them a chance. The above picture was taken by me,before I handed over. Things to note: Must bring Tripod! Use manual mode with Aperture at f11,shutter speed to bulb (hold it for atleast 5secs before releasing to get the line effect) and ISO to 100. With that,you'll be able to capture a pretty decent fireworks display. I was repeating this line for like 5 times to my kakis who had their own DSLR. I think I'm going for another round of shoot next Saturday. Anyone interested to join can just text me. Btw,I just love the weather right now. It's like a lullaby,putting me to sleep. Nonetheless,I have to resist all temptations to sleep so that I can start studying for my ICT test and Sem Exam. Must.Study! Oh,shoulders feel good after a massage from dad's friend,the physiotherapist. Syiok! She said,"you don't have to worry about your shoulders popping out anytime soon. You can continue your rugged activities without worrying." YAY!! Inuka. Smile! |
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Title: Exposed. Posted on: Saturday, July 17, 2010 |
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 'Sup! I recently found my childhood playmate via Facebook. It's been a very long time. The last time I saw him was during Kindergarten graduation. I guess I do miss those days. Free and easy. Fun that never ends. We had a song that we'd always sing to one another when we met. Hakim. Ah,nostalgic moment! Looking back all those pictures made me realise how much I've change,and wonders if he'll remember me. Anyway,I went to JB last night with Big Bro and the boys (his friends). Ate alot of food,as usual. Shopped at Pandan City. Rode all around JB,then ate summore. Finally reached home at around 5am. Nice! So later I'l be heading for Esplanade to shoot some fireworks display with my family. Anyone interested to join just text me aites. :D I'm all prepared for today's shoot. Settings are all set. Equipments are all packed. It's been awhile since I shot a fireworks display. Wonder how my photo will turn out this time round. Oh,btw,I freaking don't care anymore,and I don't even want to care! Just say whatever you feel like saying. I'm not going to stop you or correct you or go against you. I'm tired of this nonsense. Go ahead,tell the whole world you're upset or crying or whatever it is you're feeling. Honestly,I feel it's such a waste of effort. Sorry for everything. I have a heart,unlike some people. I may seem to be fierce or scary to you,but that's just to some people. I can be nice,if you're nice. If you start stepping on any of my friend's heads again,or dare to touch them, I'll do whatever necessary to get you out! FYI,talking to you like normal doesn't mean forgiveness nor forgetting. Let me make this soung nice: We'll try to put whatever history of arguement we've had and as much as possible to not think about it whenever we see you. Too bad if you feel awkward or uncomfortable around us. We're always happy laughing and enjoying and having the time of our lives. That's just us. Happiness among us comes first,before whatever sorrows we have. Trusted friends. Forever laughing,forever happy! Inuka. Sexited! :D |
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Title: Syiok! Posted on: Thursday, July 15, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Firstly,I'd like to wish a very Happy Birthday to Bro Aidil from IKEA (yellow shirt)! I know bro,long time no see. Miss me huh? HAHAHA! I miss my IKEA friends so much! Funny thing is that IKEA is just a 10mins bus ride from home,but I've yet to visit them since school started. Oh well. I hope to see you guys soon,though. Today. Fantastic! Laughing clique,we've made progress. Nice choreography! PS1001,we totally rule! All the funny videos came from our class. The other classes were plain boring,no offence. From the start,since orientation,we proved the other classes wrong with our funny skit ft. Ganesh,and won 2nd place! We're awesome people! Kickboxing. Syiok! Sparring session. Short,but nice. Hesitated to spar,but made my move in the end. No regrets. Faezzah and me,we're offencive. She has some pretty hard shots. One landed on my shoulders,and I could feel my disk-joint(or wateva you call it),after the sparring session. Nothing serious. No worries. It's just in the process of healing.Oh,need to work on the defence. Usually for MuayThai,I'm balanced. I don't know why for kickboxing,things are different. Maybe 'cuase for MuayThai,coach is always shouting at the side,asking us to block whenever we felt like attacking. Drilled us. I think I'm gonna need that for kickboxing too. :X wake up call!! Btw,I went for weigh-in session at my MT Gym yesterday. I gain 2kg! That means,I shift to another class,one class higher. Lecey,no? I like my previous class better. HMPH! Oh well! Tomorow. I'm so lost! Right now,I'm supposed to do my Human Bio report,but I'm so not motivated! :\ Faris,do cheer up and forget about the whole mess. Don't beat yourself up over little matters. And please take care of yourself and your health 'cause you didn't look well during training,although you said you were okae. I don't believe! :p Anger and frustration is not good for one's health. LOL! Buddy,keep smiling aites. Cancer or no cancer,you must stay cheerful always. You know I'll always be there for you. I'm just a phone call away. Btw,had a nice time talking to you again today. You taught me alot. You made me realise the true meaning towards the life I'm living. It's not just about achieving goals or making my parents proud,but it's more of enjoying and appreciating the things God has given us. God really do love you more than we do. Inuka. A reason to smile. You! |
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Title: Change. Posted on: Wednesday, July 14, 2010 |
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 'Sup! It won't go back to normal. Never! It changed alot. Our perspective,our view. It left a mark,made a bruise and will never be erased from our memories. Forgiving is possible. Forgetting is impossible. Thank God none of us blew up. Well,almost. I didn't want to say anything. I didn't want to explode infront of everyone else. Keeping cool is the only way,I guess. I know awfully well of the damage I can cause. I know my strength too well,to an extent that I,myself,am afraid to use them. Anyway,had a good time laughing with the clique,as usual. Daily dose of goodness,indeed! To Faris,GWS!! Don't forget to drink loads of water,eat med and have alot of rest. Weather hasn't been nice to us lately. Take care! :D Inuka. Smile always! |
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Title: Faces. Posted on: Tuesday, July 13, 2010 |
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 'Sup! To think things are bad right now. Well,it's getting worst. Don't rebuke me if my fist or palm were to end up on your face. I'm downright unhappy with all the nonsense you're crapping,trying hard to form a nice sentence. Don't you know that you're merely covering up your butt and accusing others who obviously isn't at fault. Funny thing is,at one point you say you're at fault,at another point you rephrase your words and the finger is now pointing to an innocent party. What is this? Seriously! You want to talk? Sure. I just hope it won't end up like the previous incident which I encountered. (Don't ask. Only some people know. I want to put that away,and if possible,to delete it from my memory. I regret,although it was worth it and she deserved it!) There's a passion in the hearts of a few,ever waiting inside to be set free. When the time comes and your spirit takes flight and you reach into your soul and live it with all of your might! I've been thinking alot lately. Well actually,I've always been doing alot of thinking. The thing now is that I've been thinking more than usual. I'm not trying to wear my brains out. I've been doing lots of reflecting in the things I've done in the past and comparing it with the present. Some people say that I sound very mature when I speak. Maybe it's 'cause most of my friends are older than me. Mentality wise,I'm not sure. My brain's a mix of everything I suppose. Given the fact that I grew up as an athlete, being pushed very hard into accomplishing my goals(long term and short term) by my Dad,coach and mentor, being taught to be independent since young, being forced to put patience at the top of my habit list,being taught to respect and gain respect, being taught to remove the word 'Quit' from my brain's dictionary, I am what I am now. Positivity above everything. There'll always be a time where you'd make a mistake,even a small one. A life's journey is like the rough seas. You'll never have a smooth journey. There are bound to have obstacles. All you need is determination,trust and confidence in order to reach your desired destination. You think your life is bad/hard right now,there are many others who are having a harder time coping with life. Look at it this way,you still have a long way to go before the light stops shining on you. Many others are unfortunate to have their light taken away so much earlier than most of us. Cherish the life you have,'cause not like us,others have only 2 months left to live. Honestly,this isn't random. I had to let it out. I want to go star gazing again some time. :\ Inuka. See,I'm smiling! :D |
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Title: Back. Posted on: Monday, July 12, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Firstly,SPAIN won! New world cup champions. 1-0.. Iniesta scored in extra time. Casillas made many magnificent saves. Obviously,I watched the match. Slept around 12 and woke up at 2.30 am just for the finals. There's no way I was going to miss it! Holland put up a hard fight though. Nonetheless,Spain was the stronger team. It was not luck. It was pure football. Spain did miss many goals that could have been awesome,and they did hesitate to shoot at some point. They finally did scored in the finishing half of extra time. Woots! Syukri,you owe me Ferrero Rocher! hehe.. That did made my day. That did put a smile on my face. But that didn't last! PIC practical was a total joy-killer! 3hrs of practical. URGH! Then,there's those thing in my mind. Oh,I'm not attending Kickboxing training/I did not attend. I needed to get those things off my mind and off my chest! So,after PIC practical which ended at 12,the laughing clique and I lepaked. Then I left for some marketing project thingy. After it ended around 5,I headed for my MuayThai gym.I just wanted to visit my coach and maybe talk to him. He knows me rather well. He can tell if my mind is off focus. We talked.I told him what was on my mind. LOADS! He convinced me to let it out,as in blog it or tell someone,besides him,so that I'll feel better. So I guess I'm gonna blog it out. If I find the right person,maybe I'll share with the person personally and more indepth. What has been bothering me? My close friend from soccer,whom I've known for nearly 6 years,was diagnosed with Leukemia. Apparently,she's in the critical stage and it's been 1 and a half years. I only found out last week. She said,"I don't want you to worry.I don't want to see you cry.I don't want you to see me in this state." I cried. Yup,I did. I lost touch with her for nearly 3 years. Having receive such bad news immidiately after getting back in touch,is really hard wrecking.She has only two months to live.I have only two months to catch up with her.However,school's been in the way.All I can do now is just to call every single night and we shall talk over the phone without bothering about the phone bill. Every time we talked on the phone,I try hard to hold back my tears. Big bro Fuad is leaving for the States in two weeks time,earlier than planned. I'm not prepared at all! I'm really going to miss him. Silat has been a disaster. Politics! I really don't want to argue over my rights,'cause I'm sick and tired of it. Since late last year,I've been trying hard to hold up the team's name.Now,people are just trying hard to snatch our team's pride and glory. Team manager thinks she has a greater power than the coach. Incredible! Grandmaster's family is taking over,trying to stabilise the team. Yar right! More like taking over permanently. Where are we placed? We're thrown aside,just because the freaking replacement is Grandmaster's daughter! This is the first time I feel like really quitting! I miss the old times where we were a strong team. No mess. No interuptions. Now,there's not even a little hope of us winning the champion trophy again. I shall just run away to SSA with abang kadir. Silat is a sport I'm passionate about,but someone just has to spoil it all. I want to get back into my passion.I want go back to being a student.I'm sick of arguing with people who has no knowledge of this sport,and what more the team. NYP has a team. Maybe.. One by one leaving me behind. Is this God's way of telling me to be patient,and that he'll sent someone greater into my life. I wish. I just wish! I can't hold on much longer. Woah! That out! I feel kinda good actually. Coach,you're right. I feel so much better! Movie soon,please? :S Predators.. Text me.. Or nudge me on MSN. Kae kae kae?? KFC too. Alamak,hungry again! :\ Inuka. I'll smile for you,for them. These tears,I'll try to hold them back. |
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Title: Deeper. Posted on: Sunday, July 11, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Weekend's almost over. I can feel the relieve now. IPS will be over tomorow. Well,atleast for now. Been feeling down lately,despite the laughing and all with the clique and buddies. I don't know. Somehow,I feel like something's missing,or maybe someone. Thought alot lately. Brain have been extra hardworking late. Thank God I didn't go berserk! Spain VS Holland. I'm on both side,so the winner doesn't really matter. Then again,I have a feeling it'll be an awesome and mouth-watering match. Can't wait! I've got my chips,pear crumble and pizza all prepared for the match. I'm so going to look like a zombie tomorow. It's going to be a tiring day for me tomorow,given the fact that I'm going to have a lack of sleep. It's so hard for me to smile,even by force. It just doesn't feel right. Mind's all mixed up. I can't seem to let it go! I hope tomorow's kickboxing training will cheer me up a little,and the laughing clique too ofcos. Then again,I might not be going for training tomorow. Not because Nabilah isn't going,but I think I need some time off. Right now,I'd love to go somewhere quiet with someone and just talk crap to take my mind off things. The last time I did that,my mind did clear. I wish I could do that again someday. The black clouds has been following me around. Inuka. I still can't seem to smile. But people,don't take the smile off your faces. |
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Title: Fall. Posted on: Saturday, July 10, 2010 |
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 'Sup! I remember those days.They were so empty of regret.Weeks passing in a haze.I saw no reason to fret(kudos to Sasha Julia). Ah,that were the days! Right now.At this very moment.I'd love to climb the highest mountain and reach for the skies. I'd love to climb up to a cliff and just jump off. I'd love to disappear to Wonderland. I'd love to get rid of this awful feeling I have. The feeling of mixed emotions. Missing someone. Frustrations. Regrets. Joy. Ecstatic. Amazed. The world's full of wonders. My view,your view. Same but different. Anyway,I'm almost done with video editting nonsense. I just want to get it done and over with. I went to town in the evening.Caught the airplane fly past (NDP 2010). Headed for Esplanade on my own and just chill and enjoy the breeze. What more can I ask for? Didn't want to call anyone up to join me. I didn't want to disturb them. My friends made plans and I wasn't interested to join. I just wanted a quiet time alone. I had loads on my mind. I was thinking. My brain was working at a faster rate than ever. Left. Somehow or rather,I feel like I'm falling. I hope I won't hurt myself. I'm going to have to pull myself back up real soon 'cause the falling is already painful enough. Inuka. I just can't seem to smile today. |
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Title: Dig deeper. Posted on: Friday, July 9, 2010 |
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 'Sup! I hate it when people backstab others,and at the same time they are accusing the other person of backstabbing. People gave constructive comments,and you think it was redundant. People provided suggestions,and yet you choose not to take into consideration. You wanted it done your way. Who are you?! I wanted to start my post in a nice way. Sadly,my frustration took over. Honestly,I have been rather angry/frustrated lately. I didn't expect a friend of mine to be the backstabber. Oh Ms Goodie-two-shoes,just cut the crap. We've been noticing it,but haven't actually find the right moment to expose you. You're hurting others. What's worst is that you don't know that someone is making use of you. That person is adding fuel to the flame. Easily influence huh? Be glad that I can control this anger of mine,or my fist/palm will end up on your face. We know who is wrong and who is not. We can see it from a birds eye view,while others see from such a personal perspective,like you. Self-absorbed much! Lets put that aside for now. Anyway,the weekend is finally here,but I'm dreading it. I'm hating my weekend already! It's fully packed! Project completion,project completion,Some marketing project interview,and more project completion. I'm not complaining. Actually,it's rather fun,except for the fact that my family will be going to Kota Tinggi for a short getaway while I'm stuck at home. Although big brother will be keeping me company,he'll only be home around after 5pm 'cause he finish work at 4.30pm. Tomorow(Saturday),I have a marketing project interview at Bugis,around 5pm. I have to drag my butt there,even though I'll be busy completing my project. After monday,I really need something to make the stress go away. Movie,maybe? My head is spinning so hard that it feels like it's going to drop off from my neck. Thank God I have my laughing clique to atleast hold my head up slightly longer,with our silly antics. I can't wait for our remix of Lady Gaga's Bad Romance. To Khairil, if you ever need someone to talk to again,and to meet up for a heart-to-heart talk,just call me aites. I'll try to make time for you,out of my hectic schedule. I'll always be there for you,for all my friends. Just take it easy. A life's journey is never smooth. You have to sail through the rough sea before you can make it to your desired destination. She left you for another guy,so what? It's her lost then! Don't take it too hard to the extent that you'll do crazy stuff. It's not going to help. Really. Trust me,buddy! You don't have to thank me for the talk we had just now. It's the least I can do for a friend. Being there for them,that's a priority! To Wendy,please think twice before doing something crazy. Thank God you decided to call me before you actually did it. It's never worth doing such thing. I may have alot in my head,and a hectic schedule to keep up with,but I'll never neglect my friends.They colour my life! You do too! I cannot imagine you forcing yourself to drink till you pass out,just because you're angry at someone. There are better solutions aites. Take care of yourself,I mean it! Okae.I definitely need a movie! KFC too,'cause the thought of it is making me hungry for almost every second of my life lately. Inuka. I'll be there if you need me. I'm just a phone call away. Smile always. |
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Title: Apart. Posted on: Thursday, July 8, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Spain won!Good job,kicking the Germans' butt! Holland vs Spain for the finals. There'll be a new world cup champion. Both team deserve it, but may the best team wins! Well,that kept me awake the whole morning while IPS project kept me awake the whole night before the match started. That meant no sleep for me. Then again,I managed to survive the day without collapsing. Seriously,my day wasn't that bad. Firstly,Spain totally made my day. Then,there was some people who was there to keep me awake during Cell Bio lecture which started at 8am. That nearly killed me,but like I've said,there was some people who kept me awake. Chatted with a video call and played 2 MSN games which I won both games. HAH! I so did not cheat! :P Next was Ms Annie Ng who cracked us up with a little story. The funniest line she said today was "WHo you are?".I suppose she meant "Who are you?". Her facial expressions and reactions never fail to make us laugh. Then,it was the silly time I had with Lin Hui and Hazirah. We crashed LTQ6 to film my group's project. In the mids of doing so,Lin Hui and I went crazy. We started running around in the lecture theatre. Hoody Rangers!! Hazirah filmed the whole silly scene. Will post it when I'm free enough. We also started planning for something awesome. Will elaborate in the next para. Finally,it was kickboxing which completed my awesome day. I was at the clubroom before training. It smelled,but I'm kinda used to it already. So,Lin Hui and I have decided to do a music video. We're gonna do a silly dance to Lady Gaga's tune Bad Romance,with it's lyric rewritten by us. The title of the song would be Holy Hazirah. It's a joke within our laughing clique. I can't wait! So people,I'll update you on the progress. Holy Hazirah (music video),COMING SOON! Anyway,I wore my handwraps today. It made no difference. My left fist still hurts,especially when it comes in contact with the pads. So I had to punch the air,instead of the pads. Pretty relaxing,actually. But I can't wait for it to fully recover! Oh,we ran today,as part of the warm up. Finally,a run! I so needed it. I'm shock to find that my stamina is rather ok. I expected it to be really bad. Oh well! Faris didn't join us. LAZY BUM him!! (3rd time I'm typing this out). :D Thanks to Faezzah for suggesting the run. Not to forget,me and Kelly played Rock-Paper-Scissors during kickboxing. Yup,in the mids of the training. Some people were amused,I think. Okae.So I'm stuck with IPS video editting to do. I'm very irritated by the fact that it's very MAH FAN (however you spell it)! It's due on Monday. Thank God I'm making good progress for my group! Anyway,I'm so confused over the YOG thing. I mean,I'm not sure whether to join SCL club with the flashmob or BQD with the crowd control. Both are awesome. Both provide awesome company. What's worst is that I'm not sure whether my Torchbearing would clash with both. I'm craving for KFC and Long John Silver.It's been awhile since I last had them. It has always been Mackers,BK,Mackers,BK and more Mackers! Faris,lets go indulge in KFC's finger licking good chicken sometime. HAHAHA! Well,till here. Inuka. Smile always! PS: I yawn countless of times today. Slept for awhile during Maths Tutorial. Yay me! |
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Title: Ease. Posted on: Wednesday, July 7, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Holland won,in this morning's match against Uruguay. Enlightened. Oranjjee!!! Slept at 12 and woke up at 230am for the match. Incredibly sleepy. Went to school and survived it with a a major headache. Finally,a day where I can go home early and catch up on my sleep. 3 hours of sleep was amazing! I kind of finally exploded over something. Actually,we did. Just this certain us who just can't take it anymore. It has crossed the line and gone overboard! Seriously,what's your problem? Don't 'Macam Paham' can? Good news: I can clench my fist normally now. It doesn't really hurt anymore. The blisters are still red though. It still hurts when come in contact with water,but it's bearable. From now onwards,I'll definitely wear my handwraps. Anyway,tomorow is going to be another long day. The worst part is that there is no Scientific Writing and Presentation lecture. This means school will end at 1 instead of the usual 5. What am I suppose to do for 5 hours before going for BQD? Wait. I'm teaching Haziq the tunggal steps tomorow,before BQD. I think. Anybody interested to join us? The more the merrier. HAHA! Just text me. I guess that will help kill time. I'm the voice inside your head.You refuse to hear.I'm the face that you have to face.Mirrored in your stare.I'm what's left, I'm what's right.I'm the enemy.I'm the hand that will take you down,bring you to your knees. So who are you?Yeah, who are you? That was the Foo Fighters! Their rocking my night,accompanied by many others,while I attempt to complete video editing for my group's project. Inuka. Smile always. PS: Don't try to act like you've got swagger. Don't make me tell you off. I mean it this time! |
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Title: Rise. Posted on: Tuesday, July 6, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Rollercoster ride of emotions. Laziness. Frustration. Happiness. Laziness again. Excitement. Joy. Honestly,Samba isn't that bad. Watching the ballroom dancers,especially Azri,definitely made my hair stand but it was a joyful experience. Well,today was the first rehersal for the Flashmob thingy. Definitely enjoyed my time with the rest of the SCL club member. We 'Jeng-Jeng' thrice! Happening! We were so enthusiastic. Anyway,samba is the opening dance. Not sure 'bout the rest yet. It's going to be cool,no doubt! NYP is like so into the YOG thing. Serious. No kidding! But cool lah kae. Btw, I can finally clench my fist. But here's the catch. I can't feel my fingers when it's cleched. Oh,the swell hasn't gone down too.Oh well!! I hope it gets better tomorow. Ice-ing it now,and trying hard not to scream when the ice come in contact with the blisters/cuts on my fingers. Fun time controlling the pain! What a long day! EMINEM's back btw..YAY! Love his new album. Inuka. Smile! PS: My PSP died on me. As in,it crashed on me. Anyone nice enough to lend me theirs? I'm like deprived of handheld games lately. I.WANT.TO.PLAY.GAME!! kae.so childish. |
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Title: Fire. Posted on: Monday, July 5, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Knuckle is red. No,now it's swelling. I can't clench my left fist fully,without having to give a sour face. HAH! Smart me. Stubborn me. As usual. What are the handwraps for? Decoration? Okae. I deserve it. Sadded! Kickboxing.Finally! Padding play with Sifu,so unexpected! Fun,but definitely vigorous. So much pressure. I need to maintain my reputation whenever he's watching me. No,that's really self-observing. I need to get back my original stamina. I'm killing myself right now. Injuries? Never fully recovered. The disciplin to take a long rest. Hah! I haven't mastered that yet,sadly! Stubborn is my middle name. Cliche! Well,somebody looked awfully moody today. Like I've said before. You ought to be recognised for all your effort and sacrifices for the team. You're like the spark. Without you,there won't be fire. Injured,and you're still coming for training. You remind me so much of myself. HAHA! Well,your graduation is coming. Please,do take the opportunity to take a long break from your activities so that you can fully recover. For now,just endure the pain and keep smiling. People have been saying that to me,over and over again. I haven't decided on a time to really slow down on my rugged activities for my injuries to fully recover. The thing is,I get restless too easily. I guess,the only thing now is for you to take care and try not to injure yourself anymore,aites Faris. IPS project almost done. Comedy Movie in the making. LOL! "A TRUE FRIEND IS SOMEONE WHO SEES THE PAIN IN YOUR EYES WHILE EVERYONE ELSE BELIEVES THE FAKE SMILE." True? Possibly. Inuka. Smile always,right Faris? |
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Title: Moment. Posted on: |
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 'Sup! Alarm clock rings. Snooze it. Goes back to sleep. Dream the sweetest dream. 5 minutes later,alarm clock rings again. There goes your dream! I'm sure you've had this moment. I've had it countless of times. It's really sickening! Weird moment. Imagine someone sitting directly opposite you in the train. Now,imagine the person wearing the same tshirt,pants and shoes. Weird much! Yeah,that's how I felt this morning. She was like the exact replica of me. Woah! Crazy start to the day! Rambles.Boredom.Killing time,or more like time is killing us. Nothing is going our way. Everything is getting in our way. Sounds crazy,but true. Where's the determination? Where's the will to fight on? I might have left it somewhere. I've lost all the enthusiasm. I've lost interest,maybe. I can't let this go on. Let's go hunting! A fun time awaits me,in LaLa Land.. Head's spinning. This is what you get for sleeping in the wee hours. Inuka. I noticed you,and I smiled almost immediately(automatic). |
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Title: Mix. Posted on: Sunday, July 4, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Twilight Saga fever + World Cup fever = school work and projects falling way behind. Distractions and more distractions. The mind's full of crap. It needs to be deleted real soon or my body will feel the fatigue of holding on to the edge. I just need my activities to cut me some slack from all this nonsense that has been pulling me off the right track. The kicking,punching,running and loads of muscle straining workouts. I was given an option. Leave on a plane to the States and ditch Poly for a college there or stay and continue with whatever I'm doing here. Honestly,I would have chosen the States. Then again,I grew up here (sort of),my family and friends are here,and I'm like in the mids of Poly. I can't just ditch something that I've already started on. You have to finish whatever you've started. Besides,I don't think I'll enjoy my life there,alone. Throw me the option again when I'm done with Poly. I think I'll need it. Further my studies,maybe. In my mind I'm a fighter.My hearts a lighter.My soul is the fluid.My flow sparks it right up. Well,Spain won. They'll meet the Germans. Another war coming right up,bro. 2.30am! There goes my sleep. Like I've said before,I may be rooting for Spain and Netherlands but I still feel Germany has a higher chance of winning this year's World Cup. Oh well! Inuka. Stop.Stare.Smile. |
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Title: Trashed. Posted on: Saturday, July 3, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Well,Germany won. Argentina was a great disappointment. I bet they no nuts about defending 'cause they totally displayed zero knowledge of it on the field againts the young and energetic Germans. Honestly,Germans deserve the win. I may be sad,but atleast I'm beginning to feel the thrill of watching the World Cup. So many unexpected results. My dear Netherland is a good example. I hope Spain won't disappoint me. Even then,I think Germany has a higher chance,in winning this year's World Cup. We'll see. Oh,not to forget. I owe my dearest big brother a treat to Manhattan Fish,since Germany won. Yes,obviously he supported the team. Imagine having a war with him,over soccer. Pillow tossed all over the living room. Wrestled whenever Germany scored. Then again,brotherly love. Aww! I love you,bro. I suddenly feel like want to feeling-feeling Jiwang. LOL! It's been awhile since I last heard this song. After playing Isabella on my guitar and tearing,I'm feeling a little more sentimental.It kind of suits the weather too. Gloomy.. Inuka. Beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang.. |
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 'Sup! World Cup fever is honestly getting in the way of our school work and tests. Then again,SO WHAT?! World Cup comes once in every 4 years only. Oh my God,I can't believe I just said that. Mind's off focus again. Anyway,I had a blast with the family and cousin,over at Pandan City,Johor Baru. We drove up to JB specially for dinner and to catch Brazil Vs Netherlands. They had a large screen all prepared for the game. What better way to catch a game than to watch it with a large crowd,accompanied by Satay,Burger Ramli,Nan and Iced Tea. Awesome environment and moment. I kind of expected Brazil to lose the game. It was the first time that I actually watch Netherlands play that well. I guess they deserve the semi final spot. Oh,it just so happen that my cousin bought me a Nike Netherlands Tshirt just before we left for JB. The reason he actually bought the Tshirt was because my favourite colour is Orange. And it just so happen that Netherlands won that night. Cool! We reached home around 3am,as usual. Well,it's the weekend now. Movie with Ding Dongs,and maybe Wolrd Cup with them too. I can't possibly miss the match. It's Argentina Vs Germany for God's sake! Argentina FTW! Popcorn to accompany us tonight! Can't wait! I've got to get my mind back on the right track. Projects,projects and more projects due soon and I'm so distracted. Wait,after tonight's match then I'll put my mind where it's suppose to be at. :D Inuka. Smiles. |
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Title: Eclipse. Posted on: Thursday, July 1, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Eclipsed. With the laughing clique,today after our torturous Mathematics paper. Great end to our disasterous week of Common Test. The movie was awesome. Definitely better than New Moon,with a rating of 4-5 starts. Two thumbs up! Must watch! Go Team Edward!! Jacob,wipe that grin off your face or I'll slap you. :P Honestly,Jacob wasn't as hot as he was in New Moon (Edward is hotter though.Always is.) In Eclipse,he was just plain pathetic. Sorry Jacob fans. Shall I spoil the movie for you? Neh,I'm not that evil. Anyone need a companion to go watch it,just text me. I'd be glad to accompany you. For now,I can't stop playing back the movie in my head. I'm looking forward to Breaking Dawn. Oh,we bought Leyon a balloon for his birthday,and embarrassed him. It was a Hello Kitty one. It was cute,really. Happy Birthday! No paper tomorrow.No school.Date with PIC tutorial. Argentina Vs Germany on Saturday. ARGENTINA FTW!! Weekend craze with the Ding Dongs and the kakis. Dreading Monday already,but definitely looking forward to Kickboxing. Finally! I guess fantasy heroes do exist in this life we call reality. Like the Cullens,they might be keeping a low profile. They might be right infront of me,but I'm blinded by the fact that we all look the same physically. Well,it still sounds like fantasy to me. Inuka. I smiled so hard,my mouth looked like a capital 'U'. |
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