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INUKA DOINKZ! Enjoys sports,dance(mainly hiphop) and photography. Dream big!. Live it up! Soar high,touch the sky. I know I'm not perfect,but I hope you like me for who I am. |
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Title: Run. Posted on: Tuesday, August 31, 2010 |
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How far would you go for the one you love? How much would you sacrifice for the love of your life? Could it all sum up to billions of dollar or one's life? Wouldn't that be considered a little too much? What about yourself? Ever thought about yourself? Putting others infront of yourself. That's common,I know. I do too. Keep thinking. Keep pondering. Keep that brain juices flowing. No one is certain. No answer is fixed. Right now,I just feel like running. Getting every shit out of my head. Screw what people have to say. My leg's been enduring all the pain since like forever. Stubborn as it may seem,but I find running truely helps. Sorry to all,but it gets the trouble out. It's like forcing out a gum stucked under a desk or shoe. You know the song "Bad day?" by Daniel Powter. Cause you had a bad day.You're taking one down.You sing a sad song just to turn it around.You say you don't know.You tell me don't lie.You work at a smile and you go for a ride.You had a bad day. Honestly,Ramadhan have been like a fight for me. Is this a test from God? And I thought Ramadhan itself was a test. Oh dear God,I can't wait for Eidul-Fitr to arrive. I'm sure it'll taste like sweet freedom.I'm being as patient as can in facing all that's approaching me. It's that what you call a true human? If so,I'm proud of it and would dearly like to stay this way till the very end of my life on this lovely planet. 'Ibadah' is what I'll strive to conduct in every single day,but I cannot promise that I'll not make any mistakes. If I did,I won't be considered to be human. Every being make mistakes,even the stupidest ones. I just hope my mistakes won't be as big as an Avalanche. Amin! |
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Brain cells regenerated. A night of crazy conversations online. I've never felt like this,ever,for any of my exam papers. I feel quite confident. This confident is different. This confident is one that shows that no matter how little time I put into studying for this particular paper,my brain seem to be able to absorb most of the notes given. Syukur! With this paper soon to go down,I'll be rushing through Bio and use up every bit of the memory that's left for all the possible notes I can absorb. Honestly,exam isn't at all bad afterall. It's just a matter effort and whether or not you want to do it well for yourself. It's your future afterall. |
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Title: Control. Posted on: Monday, August 30, 2010 |
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You called and we met. We talked and,most of all,we argued. I expected better,than a war of words. You asked for my opinion. I threw it all to you,but what did I get in return? Accusation. I'm sorry if I wasn't much of a help. I thought by walking off (or in my case,limping off),the argument would end. That silly argument that I'd definitely laugh off. You stopped me. I was waiting for more to travel into my ears,but I got something else. A kiss. Indeed,it shocked me. I blanked out. "Thanks" was how it all ended. Glad I could help,boy. Keep smiling. |
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What can I say? The lies are mere facades. It'll cover up your ass for awhile. "Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?" It's okay. I'm just going to put it all behind now. Those days we called memories was just a bunch of fairytales put together. Let me shed some light,will you?. Trust me,'cause it'll save you. I can finally see.. Painkiller,you're my bestfriend for now. Thank you for taking away the pain for 12hours. With much love,Inuka. I found my Superman. I think. Buddies for life,remember? Mathematics paper gone. 3 more to go. Barely survived the ordeal. Barely,I said! Brain almost gave up mid way but decided to push on despite the vigorous thinking it had to go through. Right now,PIC is totally making my life miserable. Guess what,someone just pushed the delete button and nothing about PIC is in my head. Sleepless night,again. Thank God the paper starts at 4. I have atleast 3 hours tonight and 3 hours more tomorrow to reabsorb all that's lost. Prepare to be loaded again,dear brain. I'm sorry. Notice how I've decided to change? The new blog skin. No more "'sup!". I hardly end off with my name too. I'm just trying this out. A little change doesn't kill, right? Big bro says it's part of life. I trust him. I mean,I shifting my habits here and there to discover a newer me. I'll stand up for myself. There are a million excuses to evade hurt,but there are million more reasons to love. |
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Title: Cross. Posted on: Sunday, August 29, 2010 |
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History have taught me a million lessons on how human beings are being so irrational when it comes to making simple decisions. Crazy as it seems,I think I'm starting to love reading books on history of the different wars and how countries survive it out and gain their independence. Right now,I'm hunting for books on Israel's history. No,it's not because of the hot/cute Israeli sailor. I've heard stories on how Israel is thought to be dangerous country,given the fact that most of the population are Jews and they had been in war with Arab in the past years. This means they're not exactly in good terms with the muslims. Yet,I'd love to visit Israel someday.Run till your legs can't run no more,because sometimes it's the only way out of things. PS: I hate walking in crutches,thus I shall limp my way to school or pretend that I'm fine. Peace! |
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Title: Note. Posted on: Saturday, August 28, 2010 |
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Everything that happens,happened for some reason. A simple fall isn't a breaking point. Believe it. Believe in your strength to pull through every single shit that comes by. I wish I had more to say to you,my dear Superman. But right now,this is all I can offer. Just so you know,I'll stay by your side no matter what. Believe! |
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Title: End. Posted on: Thursday, August 26, 2010 |
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'Sup! YOG has finally ended with a big BANG at the closing ceremony. Athletes came to getter once again for the last time before departing for home. They obviously enjoyed themselves at the party earlier today. I didn't attend the closing ceremony. I just wanted them to enjoy themselves for the last time in Singapore(for now). Nonetheless,I still dropped by YOV to see how their preparations for home were. They were indeed upset to have to leave Singapore. They wished that they could a little longer. I left awhile later. When I got home,I got a call from a private number. In turned out to be my three musketeers. They called from a payphone just to say goodbye. I was really shocked and touched that I actually teared. I'm still touched. I miss you guys already. Have a safe trip back home and take care! Anyway,I finally received an email from big brother who's over in the States. H wrote: "Salam Superstar! I hope you are doing fine with school and your activities. I heard you enjoyed yourself throughout the Youth Olympic and made new friends too. I'm happy to hear all that. I'm really proud of you. I just hope all of those efforts doesn't affect your other efforts for your upcoming examinations. Make sure you do well for it. Remember us having that conversation the other day? The one about you wanting to quit your current Silat team for another? Have you decided if you're really going for it? I think you should. I know you'll start from the bottom, but don't ever think that you've actually failed. You haven't. I've seen you grow into it and became a fantastic athlete through it. Take this change as a lesson and use this new environment as a weapon. Use it wisely,my dear sister. I won't be able to call you as often as I promised. I've been really busy with school and work. I miss you and the rest of the family. Who wouldn't,right? I can't wait for Aidilfitri to come. I want to come back home to meet my love ones. Sadly,I can't be there on the first day. Did you know,US is going to celebrate Aidilfitri on the 12th September instead of the 10th? They want to respect the Americans who were killed in the September 11 incident. It sounds crazy,but I've got to respect that too. Anyway,I really hope you don't give up on anything in life. Strive for what you've aimed for. Strive to be the best in what you do. I believe in you, and I know you definitely believe in yourself too. Make me proud in both your activities and studies. I want to hear good news from you all the time. No more messing up,remember? Our days on that are over. We've started a new chapter in our lives together and left all those bad memories behind. Right now, I see a superstar in the making. This explains my greeting. I see you shining,not only in my eyes, but in other's too. Keep shining brighter,sis. You have my support. Well,I'm about to end my email. I'd like you to know that I really miss you. I got a jacket from my uni with the name "SUPERSTAR" and the number "9" embroided on the back of it. It's specially for you. It's in red and black,though. Too bad my uni don't have the colour orange in it's crest. Take care,my dear sister. I'm expecting a long reply back from you, but it'll be great if you do. Send my regards to all. Love, Abang." That's it. Inuka. Smile! |
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Title: If I could just turn back time. Posted on: Wednesday, August 25, 2010 |
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     'Sup! YOG will officially be over tomorow. That's really sad! Today was the last day of my duties. It was the amazing - the experience and company I have. The athletes were really great. Every day,I'll look forward to another day of duty,but as of today,there's nothing for me to look forward to anymore besides news about all my buddies' progress in their sailing career. I miss them already. Today was the last day. The best day of all my days on duty. With Mayan Rafic winning Gold,as predicted, and his close friend Kieran Martin winning 3rd in the same category. I'm real proud and happy for the both of them. I saw how determined they were and how friendship wasn't affected back on shore. They were only rivals in the sea. That's what true sportsmanship is. Though the other sailors didn't win any medals,they were still winners to their coaches. The did their utmost best and didn't give up even if they were last in every race they competed in. I'm really touched by what they've given in return - a warm hug,the most memorable smile,a final wave goodbye and souvenirs. I'll never forget those times. It was definitely a great experience. I'll hope you guys will have a successful sailing career ahead. keep in touch! :) Inuka. SMILE :D |
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Title: Cute. Posted on: Monday, August 23, 2010 |
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'Sup! The first Jewish I've met, and the first Jewish who says that he'll have my back no matter the distance. How cute. I'm amazed. Pinky swear - the first I've ever made. I'm very proud. First in all 3 races today and a lead in the tables. Awesome,buddy! Keep it up. I can't wait to see you on the Medal podium this Thursday and receiving the Gold medal. I'll be there to watch every moment. Pinky swear! Inuka. Smiles! |
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Title: The Cubs. Posted on: Sunday, August 22, 2010 |
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 'Sup! The Cubs have just lost a crucial semi final game against Haiti. It was definitely a big blow for the nation and,ofcourse, for the boys. They were tough on the field and kept their cool despite the Haiti boys getting on their nerves. Honestly,Haiti showed that they were horrible in football,given the fact that they made so many dives and fake falls throughout the game. It's a miracle for the Cubs,to be able to withstand such crap on the field while they play clean. Haiti don't deserve that spot in the finals. I'm not being a sore loser or what-so-ever,but it's the fact. The whole of Singapore agrees with it. I can't believe I sweared throughout the game. I felt like kicking the ball into the faces of the Haiti boys every time they fell. I was very angry. That obviously wasn't a game of football. Like my coach(ex) used to say, "those are called crap! no one will ever appreciate such play in the field." Then again,we should not keep these sour faces as a supporter. We should keep the flame ablaze so that the Cubs could keep their chins up and keep the fire burning in their souls for the next match,a fight for bronze. I believe they'll put up a good fight against their opponents. Stay strong,boys! The nations behind you no matter what! You've made us proud even after the loss.All the best! Inuka. Just keep smiling,boys! PS: One thing led to another and now we're stuck together. No matter the distance,we'll still be close. Best buds! |
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Title: Card. Posted on: Saturday, August 21, 2010 |
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'Sup! I was on duty again today,but sadly all the race were cancelled due to the lack of wind throughout the day. We ended up playing Uno,Monopoly and Murderer at the rest area. It was me,dearest buddy and his other hunky friends and the 3 other volunteers. Funny how we had so much fun despite the fatigue we felt after waiting for 6 hours. When I saw buddy this morning,he looked pretty calm and ready for the day's race. I really pity him,the wait and all. "No,no.I had fun. Playing games with you and new friends." I had fun too,buddy! So,tomorow is finally my day off. Monday too. I really need this break to catch up with my studying and my friends. Exams in two weeks. I hate that feeling of "unprepared". Though I've started studying,my mind's already stuck in YOG. I guess this is due the great company I have throughout my duty days. Hot and cute sailors. I'm totally enjoying myself! Btw,yesterday I saw Fhy at Bazaar Geylang with her family,and I was with mine. If I'm not mistaken,it was close to midnight. I was really surprise to see her/run into her. Of all places! Dad said she looked like me,or our characteristics were alike. Something like that. Funny,'cause I had the same thoughts when I first got to know her. It is said that human has 7 twins(manusia mempunyai 7 kembar),or 7 people who look alike or have very similar characteristic(close to 99%). I'm not too sure if it's real. Oh well! Anyway,I did a survey recently. As requested by Faris. Give it a go too. Click on the link below.
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Title: Way. Posted on: Thursday, August 19, 2010 |
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  'Sup! YOG have been going pretty well,except for the medal tally part. Volunteering have been fun,especially with my favourite team for Sailing is doing well,and I can't wait for tomorow. Another awesome day of duty. FYI,my favourite isn't Singapore, and it's Team Israel made of Naomi Cohen and my awesome cutie Mayan Rafic. After race 4, Mayan Rafic is in the lead with 9 point on the table. He has high chance of winning Gold in the first ever Youth Olympic Games. I'm so proud of his performance. Proud of you,buddy. Well,watched the Taekwondo match on television earlier this evening. Horrible,really! The match between Mexico and China (female) was seriously S-T-U-P-I-D! The China girl don't deserve to win,given the fact that she scored 2 goals not because her kicks were valid but because she kept making Mexico to commit fouls. That one point which Mexico scored was the only score that was made by a valid kick. Irritating referee! Then it was China vs Germany (male). Yet again,China didn't deserve to win. The points the China guy scored was pathetic too. He didn't earned by making valid kicks. Obviously, the German guy deserve to win,not the China guy. Honestly,but no offence,I think the Chinese national are not fit to fight. They CANNOT fight,seriously! No offence,and trust me on this(i think). That aside. The Lion Cubs made us Singaporeans proud by winning againts Montenegro,with the score of 3-2. They were awesome on the field,countering their opponents offence well and countering the pressure built after Montenegro took a lead in the first half. They boys are in good shape,and have a high chance in winning Gold for the country. With talented and confident players, I'm sure Singapore would be able to make bigger history. Go all the way,boys! Anyway,today there isn't any race for the Sailing side. It's considered a rest day,and a day for them to go out and explore Singapore. It's called Culture & Education Programme (CEP),where they get to know about our country and mix around with other athletes from various countries. They sure did have fun learning and interacting. No doubt that they're tired,but they still had some energy and enthusiasm in participating in the activities. I'll see you guys back at the competition ground tomorow,and I'll hope it'll be another awesome day. Rest well and sleep tight. Tomorow's going to be another long day. All the best to Team Israel! Inuka Smiling like an idiot,but who cares? |
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Title: Awesome Abs! Posted on: Tuesday, August 17, 2010 |
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 Martin Kieran,Great Britain.So far,after 2 races,he's in the lead.
'Sup! Well,that was YOG competition,day one. Loads of hot guys,from USA to Great Britain to Israel to Spain. WOOH! Awesome view I tell you. Awesome abs! Can't wait for the rest of my duty days. Rafic Mayan,all the best for the rest of your races. You have my support all the way,new buddy! Go for Gold! :D Inuka. Smiling,as usual! |
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Title: Back. Posted on: Monday, August 16, 2010 |
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 KTM 125sx (2010)It's really an awesome improvement of the previous year's make. KTM,a light weighted bike.
I miss those riding days,where crazy stunts were crazy ways of killing time and an awesome way to get rid of all the troubles we have. Adrenaline rush. Jump. Skid. Slide. Corners. Crazy sport for a female,huh? Back then,there were 15 of us. All females. Another 20 were guys. I miss those days. I feel like reliving my riding days. Maybe not as constant as I was before,but maybe ride for atleast 3 times a month. That way,I can save up on maintenance as well. LOL! Lost for words. Inuka.Smile! |
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Title: Long. Posted on: Sunday, August 15, 2010 |
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Something  I never imagine would happen.Something I wish I could hold on to. Some thing's just mean nothing. My weakness?My fear? What have I got to lose? YOU! Merci. Thanks. I owe you. Those smile you help me put up. I wish I was as strong you think I was. I just wish... I need some fresh air. I need peace. I need to go get my Baju Kurung in Malaysia!! So,tomorow I'll be leaving for JB,for a short getaway. The camera will be my bestest friend tomorow. Only pictures could express the emotions that's running through my whole entire body. I think. I hope. I miss big bro. I miss them. I miss everything that made me whole in the past. I just wish... I have to focus. My studies. My future. My life. Exam's on it's way. I'm no where near prepared,but I'm somewhere near progress. Distractions. Training have been rather great,with intensity level maintained despite the fasting month. Sparring sessions has decreased though. Preventing injuries,I suppose. Even then,I'm limping. A normal thing for me. Injuries are sort of my close friends. Learn to endure the pain,and you'll never know what excrutiating pain feels like. Really. Maybe,a little,but it's bearable. Breaking a bone sound painful enough for you to scream your lungs out,but after having gone through lots of experiences with injuries like deep cuts and a punch that could knock you out,you'll come to realise that breaking a bone is just like a slap on the face. All the best to the YOG athletes. You have my support! Nice knowing you people. Hope after YOG,we'll still keep in contact. I'll definitely miss you guys. Oh,I'll see you guys this coming monday. Inuka. Smile,'cause it's the only thing that matter.
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Title: Bomb! Posted on: Friday, August 13, 2010 |
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 'Sup! It's been three days and things' been rather smooth. Maybe not everything. Food,Family(almost) and Friends. Only one thing is spoiling it all. One thing that almost triggered the most fearful thing in my family,which is rage! My brother got into trouble again. It's Ramadhan,and I know I should be able to control myself. I'm trying my best. It's not his fault,actually. Freakin' group of useless boys chasing after my brother and his friends because of a girl. Threaten them? If they dare lay a finger on him and his friends,I make sure they break atleast a bone. No kidding! Can't they just deal with the fact that their girlfriend is close with my brother and his friends? They're just friends! Jealous? IDIOT! So today me and dad went to my brother's school. He was tailed as he was on the way back from school after Friday prayers. After he texted me,saying he needed help,I immediately 'deploy' my friends out to his school. At the same time,I informed my dad. We rushed to his school to make sure he was okay. the school was informed and my friends were keeping a close watch. To think the boys chasing after my brothers were big shot gangsters. Yar right! More like big shot sissies. My dad wanted it too be settled asap. Given the fact that one of the boys is a drop-out,my brother's school won't be able to approach him. Thus,my dad decided to handle that one particular boy himself. Honestly,you don't want to mess with my dad. I know him. People know him. Family members know what kind of strength both of us possess. When you get on the wrong side of him,or in this case mess around with his kids,you'll get a lesson you'll never forget. This isn't the first time. The last time was when Big Bro got into trouble and dad was there to help him out. But as much as possible,we don't want that to repeat. Police report should help too. Teacher: I will bring this up to the discipline committee. Dad: As mush as possible,I don't want me or my daughter to get involve. Or else it'll turn ugly. Cousin(also a school teacher there): Yes. The school will try their best to settle this case. Me: *Grins* For now,my brother should be in a rather safe position,with his form teacher escorting home for the rest of next week and my friends on a look out. This may sound like he's weak and can't take care of himself,but he's not. My brother isn't the type to find trouble for himself. Though he may mess up academically,he's pretty much a guy who just loves to sit back and relax. My big bro and I are two opposite beings. We sort of follow our dad. I don't want my younger bro to follow too. Having two in that postion is more than enough. My younger bro is sort of the goody type in my family,and the non-active one. Anyway,I'm sorry if I sound harsh or scary in this post,but I've had enough! Like the Singapore Guard's Motto: "Ready to Strike!",I'm always ready to strike. Never leave a man behind.I've heard this countless of times,given the fact that big bro was one of them before he went over to the States. He was proud of who he was,and so were we. I hope this case really settles soon or me and my friends will take action. Inuka. Smile! PS: Thanks to the kakis for responding to my 'deployment'. Appreciate it! Come over to my place soon and I'll cook or my dad will cook for you guys. Yes,all 28 of you guys who were there since that day. :D |
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Title: Change. Posted on: Thursday, August 12, 2010 |
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Through thick and thin. Through ups and downs. Those souls were there for me,with me. On rough seas and hard ground. They were there to catch my fall. No wind was too strong for us. No heat was too hot for us. We stood firm as one. Those mistakes I made. Those falls I had. They were lessons. I've learnt alot over the years. Not everything will last forever. Not everything are meant to be together. One door closes,and the other opens. It's just life. It's part of growing up. What's true,and what's fake? It's all undetermined. Only one thing's for sure. The power of one's mind. You make the decision.You execute it. I may have many friends. Even friends whose name I don't recall. Networking,a natural process. Only a few would stick by you 24/7. That's what friends do. Anyway,dad has given me the green light to leave the Silat club that I was groomed in for another club. SSA,probably. I know I'll be starting from the bottom,but with much determination,I hope I'll be able to reach that higher standards again. I just need regular trainings and focus. Training in the school team could also help. So,I cooked Murtabak Maggi for tmr's Sahur. It may sound wierd,but it's delicious! Trust me. If you want to try,I can cook for you someday. Just text me. I'm a wo-man of my words. Honestly,I like cooking. It's sort of an adventure. You get to taste all kinds of wierd herbs and ingredients you never knew existed. I guess it's been passed down to me by my dad,like all my other talents. Well,I hope you people managed to survive the 2nd day of Ramadhan. 28days more to go. I'm siked! Inuka. Smile.
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Title: One down. Posted on: Wednesday, August 11, 2010 |
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1 down. 29 more days to go. As time flies,I can feel the pressure rise. A mix of emotions,slowly overpowering. What I once thought was my strength,is slowly evolving into a weakness. Tears shed as I reminisce. Is this the right time for another change? Is the right time for me to leave all that's been a hindrance? It's going to be another leap. I hope! Giving up,that's never been in my dictionary. I never knew what it was like. Striving for success in everything I do. Going with the flow of what life leads me too. It's time I take a turn. A change of direction,hopefully a right one. I'm leaving the place where I was groomed to be perfect. I'm leaving behind great satisfactory,and starting a fresh. Starting from the bottom,and I'm all prepared! It's time I say goodbye and thank you. Goodbye to all the awesome companies. Thank you for all the support over the years. I'm leaving them behind without regrets. They've taught me a million lessons. From the bottom I will start. From the bottom I will grow. From the bottom I will prove that I'm able to put all my experience to good use, help myself go to another level and develop into a better individual than you one know. I've got high expectations of myself. I'll prove them wrong. An all-rounder,that's what I've become. All thanks to our coach,Abang Razali. I appreciate what he had done. To give me the opportunity. To believe in me. I may have shined in his eyes,but there's that peak that I've not reached. I'll aim for it.I'll reach for it. I'll achieve it! inuka. Smile. Selamat berpuasa! |
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Title: Memories. Posted on: Tuesday, August 10, 2010 |
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'Sup! August. A month filled with awesome memories,though it's only the start. NDP,something I'll never give a miss,be it sitting at home catching the parade on television or crashing town for the fireworks or watching the Parade live. Patriotic? HAH! Then there's YOG,something I'm pretty excited about. It may not be as big as the Beijing Olympics,but I'm sure it'll be great experience. Not only was I selected to run as one of the Torchbearer (together with 2399 others),I'm gladly volunteering as a Result Runner for the Sailing event throughout the competition days. It's really awesome! Ramadhan. Tomorow's the start of the fasting month,something I've been looking forward to. It's a month of peace for me. People consider it an opportunity to lose weight,but what is there for me to lose? HAH! I'm looking forward to a good diet and training this Ramadhan,pushing myself further and higher. 3 weeks holiday,I've set aside enough time to study despite the tight schedule I have. Volunteering for YOG, MT training. Busy person,indeed. Despite that,I'm going to make sure that I have enough time with my friends and family. I'm going to make appointments and plans for us to go break fast together. My theme song: My World by Avril Lavigne "You have a typical crazy life, and between daydreaming and friends and growing up in a small town, you tend to laugh at life even when it can get tough. You've learned to be confident and stand up for yourself." I'll let some pictures continue. Inuka. Smile!        
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Title: Grow. Posted on: Sunday, August 8, 2010 |
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 'Sup! What was growing up like as a teenager? Getting into trouble? Flunking examinations? Make new 'friends'? I've been through all that,and I bet many of you have gone through all that. Then again,how many of you had actually get into trouble with gangs and stuff like that? Not many,I suppose. Anyway,last night my younger brother texted me,"Kakak,I need help. My friend's friends is looking for me. I'm outside with my friends now. I don't know what they want from me." It totally shocked me. My brother? Getting into such trouble? Apart from that,I was furious. I didn't want any of those boys to lay a single finger on my brother. Since abang wasn't around,I had to stand up for him. I called my dad immediately after receiving the sms and explained everything to him. He left some money for my brother with my mum before he left for a meeting. My younger brother cabbed home. As he was on his way home,I called every single one of my friends to surround my block and watch over my brother. These friends are not the normal friends I have, They're people we don't want to mess with. I used to hangout with them often. You can say that they're part of a gang. They have always looked out for me. They were my elder brother's friends too. Soon after,I received a text message,"Dik,your brother has reached home safely,but we'll stay a little longer to make sure. Pape picit je." I felt relieved. I didn't want brother to get into any trouble. I didn't want him to follow the path I took in the past. It was a total mistake. Then again,I'm not looking down on those friends I have. I never did. I love them as much as I love the rest of my friends. When I got home,I asked my brother to explained to me. All he said was "I don't. I don't know what they want from me. I didn't do anything wrong!" I believe him. I know my brother look and dress like a matrep,but he'll never do anything stupid to get him into serious trouble. Now,I want to know what are they boys' problem with my brother. If they dare to lay a finger on him,I'm going to make sure they'll regret doing so. You mess with my brother,you mess with me. And if it's really serious,I'm very sure abang will fly back to Singapore and he'll settle it his way. Honestly,I'm fine with whichever type of people. Its up to you to choose whether or not you want to follow their path. Some people can easily be influenced. I admit. In the past,I was easily influenced. Now,I've changed. I've learnt alot from those past experiences. I don't want my brother to repeat what I did in the past. Inuka. |
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Title: Cola Overdose. Posted on: Saturday, August 7, 2010 |
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 'Sup! I'm so proud to be a student of NYP~ The day has finally come. Well,it's gone now. It was the first day of the YOG torch relay and NYP was proud to be the first Community Celebration site. The whole school played important roles in making the event a successful one. It was,indeed! As for me and the rest of the martial arts people,we had to do crowd control (assisting the police). It's somesort like security. It may be a tiring task,but we had fun. The cheering,screaming,laughters and all the joy. Awesome day,from the start till the end. Free flow of coca cola. Coke Overdose!!! After party. It was seriously like clubbing,with DJ Kian and DJ Smoke doing their stuff. The dancefloor was flooded with the amazing NYP students. Jumped,rock to the beat,shuffled and DANCE! It was nothing I had imagined it to be. Drenched in sweat. Overwhelming awesomeness. SCL people,you guys rock! Thanks to Leong for pushing me into the circle. Shuffling saved me. "My freshie!!" Thanks Ganesh! :D MY SENIORS!! \m/ BQD.Kickboxing people. I had loads of fun with you guys today,from morning till the after party(for some). Kelly,Prem,Siao Huan,Joyce,Maisarah,Alif and the 4 other guys which I don't know their names. Thanks to Faris for the unglam pictures. THANKYOUVERYMUCH! And thanks to him,also,for letting me carry his camera bag. I feel really awkward when I don't carry anything on my shoulders. It's just a habit. I will always carry a bag. Always. I will never forget 'today'. Tired. Shagged. Sleepy. Hungry. Happy. Awesome. The tunes are still stuck in my head! Clubbing? Neh. Parties like that is a definite! Inuka. Smiles! |
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Title: Zie. Posted on: Friday, August 6, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Sometimes the pain is just unbearable. The strong wall you've put up to withstand all those pain is slowly crumbling down. I thought time would take it all away. I'm so wrong! In a matter of time to come,I hope it'll fade. That day will soon come,I know! I really hope I can hold on till that day comes. I really hope the wall I've built would stand strong,long enough. That aside. Fatigue. Yes,tired! Physically and mentally. There are so many things cramping up my brain and I think it's all clogged up. To think the end of projects for the moment would clear my brain memory. Wrong! If only I could just press a delete button somewhere and I'll be able to make room in my brains. I officially hate politics! Know what,I'm really considering the quits. Never in my life had I felt this way till recently. I've got no more strength to hold on to it all. The team? Their gone! Serious. You can say goodbye to me,too,now! So what if I have to start from the bottom if I decide to join another team? It's the experience that matters. I won't just put all the hard work go to waste. Btw,I need to have a change of environment. Honestly,I wasn't just tired. My head was spinning like a top,and my mind was doing alot of thinking. I looked way off - not smiling that much. I'm sorry. I thought no one noticed. Atleast seeing some people smile made me smile too. Thanks! Inuka. Smile? |
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Title: Rock on! Posted on: |
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 'Sup! SingFest! I had a blast! What better way to end the night than to catch an awesome concert? The journey to the venue was also an incredible one,right mr Macho,ms Switz,mr Hunky and mr Gaga? The line up for last night wasn't as good as the first day,but what's important is that there's 30 seconds to mars. I couldn't bare to miss them! All in all,I had loads of fun in the Mosh pit with them. I guess,that explains why I didn't blog last night. I was too shagged,given the fact that I reached home close to 2am. Anyway,yesterday was officially one of the best days in my life! First was school. When we finally submitted our SWP project report and poster yesterday,we felt like the load on shoulders were finally gone. No more project work for now! Other projects were bearable. SWP was a pain in the ass! Thank God it's over! Looking forward to the coming Sem Exam and next Sem to start. Next up was Singfest. I shall not elaborate anymore on that,'cause the first para says it all. School starts at 2 today. only one pathetic lecture and we're just doing exam review. Then at 6 would be YOG briefing,which I'm looking forward to. Inuka. Smile! |
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Title: Up. Posted on: Wednesday, August 4, 2010 |
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 'Sup! I wonder how the world would be without music,without sound. Will it be as peaceful as we think it'd be? Inconvenience,I bet! People would be doing sign languages. It'll be such a messy world with arms moving all over. I really pity the deaf,right now. Here we are enjoying good music,and there they're trying hard to communicate and convey messages to one another. Well,what can we do right? It's God's will. Through music one can portay their emotions. Through music one can tell a story. Through music one can declare their love for someone without feeling awkward. It's been awhile since I last touched any musical instrument. The guitar? It's catching dust. The drum? I lost all knowledge of hitting it and making good rhythms. The trumpet? I've long lost interest in them since primary school ended. Piano? Lost all touch! Traditional musical instruments like gamelan,still into it but have been really slack. Sports and music. Don't really clique,right? For me,I'm rather versatile. I can do both,but I concentrate more on my sports as my dad was a sportsman too. Music was just a mere hobby and an interest developed through influence. And when it comes to music,I'm pretty versatile too. I'm okay with Metal rock,hard rock to electronic and trance. RnB is my personal favourite,along with Punk Rock. Rhythm and beats aside. Listen out for it's lyric. Some lyric just fit in nicely with the situation or emotion you're encountering at that very moment. Sometimes,it can also make you feel calm,or reminisce. Acoustic cover.Planning on some.Upcoming,I suppose. Once I find my groove back into plucking and strumming my guitar,maybe I'll do acoustic covers of my favourite songs,and would definitely feature some of my friends too. Let's try to start the fire again with the little spark we have. Inuka. Smile! Inilah aku apa adanya,yang ingin membuatmu bahagia. Maafkan bilaku tak sempurna,sesempurna cintaku padamu.~ Biar cinta kita tumbuh harum mewangi,dan dunia menjadi saksinya. Untuk apa kita membuang-buang waktu dengan kata kata perpisahan.~ |
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Title: Undone. Posted on: Tuesday, August 3, 2010 |
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 'Sup! It's day 3 of I-AM-SICK! It has improved. It's 37.9 degress celcius now,since morning actually. It hasn't gone down further. Atleast it's not above 38.0 degree celcius like yesterday. Yesterday's temperature was 38.3 then it went up to 38.8 and in the evening it fell to 38.2. WOOTS! Day before yesterday was when I set a record for myself this year. It was also the first day of I-AM-SICK. First temperature recorded for that day was 39.8 degree celcius. Yes,if it was possible,I could have cracked an egg on my body and have a perfectly fried egg. Ice bath at the hospital for 3 rounds and also a jab brought the temperature down to below 39.0 degree celcius. I hope I'll recover soon 'cause I hate this feeling. I hate to feel all fatigue and unable to do anything rugged. Anyway,life's been super hectic lately. Due dates! Last week of school before our study break. Projects due in 2 days time. Thank God we're done! Well,sort of. Just needs a little polishing to do. Past few weeks was horrendous! Used every second of our spare time to complete our projects so that we'll have enough time to polish whatever was neccessary. Ok.So here's the deal. I miss Kickboxing people(those I know lah!), Silat mates, MT mates (those who I haven't seen in ages!). Ramadan's coming and I hope we'll be able to break our fast together like all the other years. Inuka. Smile! |
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Title: Push Posted on: Monday, August 2, 2010 |
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 'Sup! When push comes to shove... Know your limit and go beyond - Push! "Shoot for the moon.Even if you miss,you'll land among the stars." Heard of this?or somesort like this? Well,the point of this is just to encourage us to aim for the highest and not just something reachable. You'll never know if we're able to reach something that we once thought was barely reachable and beyond our wildest dreams. Expect the unexpected,remember? I know we tend to look down on ourselves whenever we underperform or fall way behind others. It's part of life. There are times where we shine,and there are other times where we fall. The fall is meant to be a lesson,not a discouraging factor. If you feel like you haven't had the chance to shine,just be patient. Everyone will have thier chance to shine. It's a matter of hardwork,determination and patience. I bet you've heard this countless of times,but have you actually thought of drilling it into yourself? For me,I'd rather not have my name up with shining lights whenever I achieve something. Having friends congratulating you is already a bonus. When I perform and succeed,the moment I see smiling faces of loved ones is a really a satisfactory feeling. I prefer to keep a low profile of myself 'cause I believe this will prevent myself from being very boastful. Then am I not proud? I am! Who wouldn't be right? Being able to reach your goals has got to be the most satisfactory feeling in your life. Then again,picking yourself up whenever you fall is also a feeling way beyond words could explain. It just shows that in every spirit of nature,there's that one bit of strength that can never be taken away. It's just a matter of believing in yourself. Push yourself hard isn't a crazy thing. It's really effort! Sometimes,you'll need a source of motivation to help yourself sail through the toughest times as you make your way up to the peak of the mountain. It could be your parents of your friends or a story you once heard or what-so-ever. As long as it's positive and keeps you driving. Do remember to be yourself! and your main goal should be 'beating yourself before you try to go against others'. Inuka. Smile. |
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Title: Work. Posted on: Sunday, August 1, 2010 |
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 'Sup! Determination. Who doesn't know this,right? Wrong! Honestly,I think people living in fast growing countries like Singapore no nuts about determination. Well,maybe they do only to a small extent. Having to be brought up in a modern city which has everything catered to,they tend to be very complacent. I'm not saying every single one of them are,but I've got to admit that I myself am complacent sometimes. Looking back at what we've gone through,others are having it far worse than what we face. Look at the Thais. Bombing and riots are indeed stupid,but they can't be blame. They are not well educated as we are over here in Singapore. They may not have the brains,but they've got the brawns and the strong will and determination. They know how hard their lives are as compared to us. They'd do anything to survive this cruel reality. Watching videos of Thai fighters on Youtube,made me think back. All these while,athletes in countires like Singapore are complaining about how tough training are. Have they watched how people like the Thais train? I bet not! If here we say we're giving our 100%,then there I'm sure their giving their 100% X 10 = 1000% I know we have to be thankful to the easier life we have in Singapore,but we can't be complacent just like that. We've got to watch and observe others as they struggle and then contribute to make better lives for them. When it comes to sports,especially Muay Thai,we've got to learn from them. They're the best! Hardness,toughness and mentality. They've got the complete package of a champion. I salute them! I know very well,if Singapore were to have trainings like the Thais have,athletes would consider it torturous and might even quit along the way. We're too pampered. Look at the equipment we have and compare it to those found in the poorer countries. Leather punching bags that are replace once there's a small tear. Leather protective vest and head gear. Handwraps. Ah,handwraps! I remembered my Muay Thai coach telling us that in Thailand,they do not have ready-made handwraps of different colours,especially in the village area. They used regular cloth,cut out in long strips. Even that is considered a priced possesion to them! The only time they replace these cloth is when they are really torn and tattered. Attending Muay Thai training hasn't only benefitted me physically,but mentally too. As far as possible, my coach always put a little touch of his homeground into training. There'll be times where it'll be extra intensive than the regular trainings and we would consider those times as "almost dying". We always hear Muay thai coaches say this "Train hard, Fight easy". Now I know what it's like. Covering all aspect of martial arts,not just to have the ability and have the advantage over others,but also to widen our knowledge and fully understand the term 'Self-defence'. My coach once said to me,"Always have this one goal in mind,which is to learn not to hurt others but to learn to appreciate the sport. With that, competitions wouldn't end up having revenge and enemies." Though it was hard for me understand it at first,I slowly took the initiative to realise it. With determination comes success! Inuka. Smile! PS: I blogged this at Changi General Hospital,while I was waiting for my turn and while I was trying to keep myself from shivering. Yes,I'm very unwell at the moment,with 39.4 degree celcius fever to be exact. Thank God I wasn't hospitalised. MC for tomorow. :\ |
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