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Title: Old. Posted on: Sunday, November 28, 2010
2 years was long. Many changes took place. I changed,you changed. I realised my mistakes I did back then. The so-called new life that I'm leading,it's full of crazy memories of my past. What I thought I've left behind,is slowly coming back. You,for example. Now that you're back in my life,it's weird how it's turning out to be. Somehow,you just keep me smiling. Honestly,it's still unbelievable that we're communicating after 2 years of silence and disappearance. Anyway,Post IVP was great! I had loads of fun and totally enjoyed myself. A day of crazy antics and much more laughter. You'll never get bored,being around these bunch of people who I can now label as awesome. A team full of spirit and bond. Too bad I had to miss the Ubin trip due to my leg injury. The whole event went rather smooth. The games definitely cracked us up. One thing I'll never forget is the part where the girls had a little 'discussion'. "Do you have/Have you had any feelings for any of the guys in the Silat team?" That totally caught me off guard. It was a shocking question,no doubt. Then again,I felt quite relieved after admitting it. I won't say who was the person I mentioned. The scary part is when Nessa told me that she sort of knew who the person was already. She could sense it. Damn! What is there to look forward to for the next few days/weeks/months? Well,there's common test coming up,2 weeks break coming up,College orientation and much much more! I really do hope my leg would recover soon. It's really a pain,having to face such obstacle when something you desire has something in it's way. Missing IVP is a great disappointment. Have to miss sports for about a month is a torture! Coach asked us to pick an idol to motivate us,and I've chosen you. You're a great example of a "never say die" attitude.
Title: Race. Posted on: Thursday, November 25, 2010
It's been awhile since I felt like this. The familiar sound of his name would make me smile. The sight of him would simply make my day. Let's stop right here. Fantasising it is all I can do right now. I'll never take the risk of letting him know. It's just this fear I have. Ah,fear. Something I'm not proud of. Pathetic is it's bestfriend. Recently,I've been very interested in the job scope of a Paramedic. But the thing is, my parent's are not really supporting this weird interest of mine. Oh well. Btw,my leg's not improving,but neither is it getting worst. The condition is kind of stagnant. The pain is still there. The best part is I can finally see the bruised spot. You know,like blue-black. When I squat or bend my knees and then release it,the pain will start to kick in and I'll start limping again. I can walk normally,but only for a short distance. Anywhere further than SCL block to the sports hall,the pain will kick in and I'll start limping. Looks like I won't be joining the Silat team in this Saturday's cycling trip to Ubin. Damn! IVP? Maybe not.
Title: Lane. Posted on:
It's Thursday. Only Thursday,but it feels like a Friday. Seriously! The week is barely over and I'm already shagged. School in 4 hours,but I've yet to get ready. Post IVP on Saturday. Should I go for the Ubin cycling trip,since my nice Supervisor decided to give me an off day on that day? I'm definitely attending the bbq in the later part of the day,but I haven't decided on the cycling trip. Though my leg hasn't recover yet,I should be able to sustain the whole trip. Right? I mean it sounds fun. Ubin is my homeland too. Well,sort of. My grandfather lives there,for real! I used to go there often for bbq,cycling trips and fishing trips. I miss that place. I know the place inside-out! Atleast I hope I still do. I have one more day to decide.
Title: High. Posted on: Wednesday, November 24, 2010
One thing led to another. What was all that about? Right now,all I'm feeling is guilt! I know,somewhere and somehow,I was the reason why they broke up. Why did I even appear in the picture at that point of time? I have no idea. I had no idea that they were together,anyway. I had no intentions to separate them. Now that I know the reason,I wish I had just disappeared and never came back in the picture. Honestly,I feel like it wasn't at all my fault. She,as a friend,didn't tell me and didn't warn me. I came back because I felt I had abandoned the clan for far too long since I started working. Going back to help out and to do some catching up with them was all that was intended. Thanks for everything. You were truly a friend.
Title: Note. Posted on: Monday, November 22, 2010
Dear SUNSHINE, I miss you. I miss seeing you smile. I miss talking to you. I miss laughing over silly jokes with you. There's a long list of things that I miss about you. Right now,what worries me most is the thought of not seeing you for a very long time. I find you really amusing,yet cute, when you laugh. Apparently,that never fails to make my day. I'd always look forward to seeing you. But now,there's no reason for me to see you all the time,like it used to be. -END- Loads of controversial issues with the NYP Silat coaches,at the moment. This is exactly the same issue my ex team (PRECC) was facing,and it did collapse and fell in the hands of a bunch of loonatics who knew nuts about how well the team was bonded. As a result of their foolish acts,the team fell apart. I'll pray very hard,that NYP Silat team will hold on tight to each other and stay strong despite having to face a dilemma. The team already have many priced possessions. But the most important thing is the team spirit. Dare to dream,guys! Yes,IVP is just a mere 3 months away. Yes,some are way underprepared. But look at it this way,if you push them too hard,they will still fall and crash without even getting to the top. We have more important commitments,like school. Afterall,it's just a CCA. The team may be pressurised by the fact that they were overall champ in the last IVP,but it shouldn't be the reason why they should be pressed over their limits. Ala..I'm too lazy to continue. All that I'd like to add are mere repetition of what I've said before when the idiots were on their way to ruining team PRECC,overall champion for InterGrasio. We won both,overall seni and overall champ. We were undefeatable! We were the best among all,because we had that bond that no other team has. It was the team spirit! One team,one heart! NYP Silat Team reminds me so much of my ex team.
Title: Flow. Posted on: Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Only the fun,joy and laughter can make us stronger and stay united as a team. Don't let a political conflict affect the bond we have. Stay strong. One team,one heart! A journey we'll travel through together. The support we have for each other. Believe!
Title: Shoot. Posted on: Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I've this sudden interest in the career prospect of a Paramedic. I have no freaking idea why! And I've been thinking over and over again,as to why I did not put nursing as one of my choices when I was enrolling for poly. I had initially wanted that as one of my options but I didn't include it. Funny huh? Oh,excuse me for my english this time round. I can't be bothered. Anyway,Salam Eidul Adha to all my fellow muslim friends and families. May you have a joyous celebration with your family. May all that are performing the Hajj this year return home safe. Oh,did I mention that I got injured yesterday during training? I was executing a jump. When I landed,my left thigh muscle was in pain. It was really intense. I tried to hold back my tears. The 'nurses'(hazmi,nessa and ibnu) attended to me. They were shock and I think the were clueless as to what they should do. In the end,we decided on RICE (Rest,Ice,Compress and Elevate). The pain was unbearable as I made my way home. Thus,I decided to visit my doctor for some treatment and medication the next day(today). It's 'Grade 2 Thigh strain'. Cool!
Title: Change. Posted on: Sunday, November 14, 2010
Just because something major is approaching earlier than expected,it doesn't mean you have to step on the accelerator to it's maximum. That's considered attempting a murder. Yes,you want to put up a hard fight with your opponents,but don't you think technique plays a bigger part,and so does focus? I remember when I was in the national team,I don't recall having to run at every training session. Though we had training every single day,and sometimes on weekends too,but coach never pushed us way over our limit. Having to run 2.4km or more at every training/before trainings is really going to rip the soul out of everyone. Instead of running, intensed workouts that incorporate both skills/techniques and power/stamina could be substituted in. Oh,it doesn't bore the hell out of you too. I remembered our coach, Abang Dzul,pushing us hard during training,but it was fun 'cause there was distribution. I know that we've got a limited amount of time to prepare,but there is no way accelerating to one's limit is going to help. Slowly pick up the pace,that's more like it. Furthermore,there some who are new into this. Pushing them extremely hard would risk having them falling off the cliff. One man goes down,everyone else follows. It's a team,no matter which category you are in. Oh,physical fitness test on Monday 5pm,before Seni/Performance training. Sweet! Hold on,do I still go? I finish lessons at 6pm. And do I want to go/prepared for the test? Most likely,no. Afterall,we're no superman! I never thought an explosive team was lead by a (feel in the blank). No offence. I miss training with team PRECC,with Abang Razali leading the team. Intensive (not so much running) trainings, technique 'workshop',skill amendments, mind focussing activities,breathing techniques and some relaxing activities. I guess things have changed. Or maybe people have the wrong mindsets about achieving the best. Oh well! I am in no position to change what things are right now.
Title: Detour. Posted on: Saturday, November 13, 2010
I'm back! Yes,I'm not dead nor was I abducted by aliens. I've just been super busy lately. Something's going wrong this semester. I'm not talking about not focussing on school,but just some other things. I've been pretty much running around doing so many things,and sometimes I feel like 24hr is too ridiculously short. Also,not to forget the amount of energy I have to keep me going each day is quickly wearing off. Fatigue,like no other. Silat performance in 6 days,at SGH. Things went pretty smooth,with Hazmi leading the team through training and choreography. Ofcourse things got intense when coach was around. Running 2.4km before a seni training,so not effective! After 2.4km run,our legs will be tired and our moods will dampened. Thus,our performance during training wouldn't be explosive! I know this very well,'cause I once coached a Seni/Demo team and we were told not to have intensive warmups before training. Intensive/skills training should be a separate one, to concentrate fully on stamina,power and techniques. Intensive trainings would interfere with one's focus in displaying a well executed choreographed movement. Ah! Anyway,today is Kak Fina and Abang Boi's engagement day. Thus,I had to miss today's Silat training. No full team today. Oh well. Health's not getting better.
Title: Trash. Posted on: Sunday, November 7, 2010
Talk about time management,man! I'm managing my time,but there's one problem. I think 24hr is starting to feel shorter. Unexpected rescheduling to do. Training is taking over my life for now. After performance,there is IVP to train for. On top of that,there is MT selection to train for and projects to complete. Oh,I'm not complaining. Really. I think I'll get used to all these again by next week. Well, atleast I hope. It's been awhile since my schedule's been so packed with major activities. I get to have more sleep. With fatigue,my brain's timing to go off has adjusted from 2am to 11pm daily. I'm making use of every bit of my extra time to catch up with friends,and at the same time to do revision. This is sem is going to be short one, and I've got to step on the accelarator now. Btw,I think my asthma is back. That is bad! I can't last a friggin 2.4km run anymore. I need my stamina back in top form,but asthma is kinda stopping it. Gosh!
Title: Halo. Posted on: Friday, November 5, 2010
Happy Deepavali to all my indian friends and to my paternal side. A short week,indeed! It feels nice,to be home on a Friday with everyone around. Long weekend for most,but not for me. Saturday morning would start off with Silat training followed by a not so nice time at work. Sunday would be full steam ahead towards revision and maybe a little time spent with some buddies. Then,it'll be Monday all over again. I'm looking forward to December. So,November please go by real quick! There are many things planned out,and I'm sure they will all be awesome!
Title: Lies. Posted on: Tuesday, November 2, 2010
One word. FATIGUE! Feel like collapsing. I think I'm falling ill. I shall not let that happen. Since tomorow ALL lessons are cancelled,I shall stay home and catch up on my rest and sleep. Officially,my rest time will start around 5am,as sson as I finish work at 4am and reach home by 430am(by cab). Since,I thought,I won't be schooling tomorow,why not work the night before right? WRONG! Night shift is horrible,especially when you have to rush down to settle something which,supposedly,is your supervisor's job. Thank God for the pay raise and free taxi rides! Gotta get back to work now. Adios!
Title: Cross. Posted on: Monday, November 1, 2010
Great! I'm taking back whatever I said yesterday,about me being prepared and all. The thing is, I feel like the walls around me are crashing and the roof caving in. Crap! It's only Monday and fatigue's kicking in. No matter how much energy I try to refill my system with,it's all being used up. School was kinda okay today. Nothing out of the ordinary,besides Hidayah punching a complete stranger by accident. After school,there was Silat performance training. That was when the fatigue starts kicking in. I've never acted all goofy infront of my friends or friends that I just made. There's one part where we had to do a freestyle movement to go with the Technologic song. Hazmi was doing sort-of a robot movement,which looked really good. Us? It was a total disaster. I think our body was too stiff and we were kinda shy to move our bodies like that infront of the others. In the end,we did relaxed abit and managed to bust some silly movement. Now,we kinda look like the Power Rangers,especially with our synchronised movements and hand patterns similar to the Power Rangers. Tomorow,another long day. Another day for us to train. Another day for me use up all my energy. Great! How in the world am I suppose to survive the whole week at this rate?

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