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Title: Eff you lah!! Posted on: Saturday, April 24, 2010
'Sup! Okae.I'm super frustrated right now. Before I tell you what happened,I just want to apologise to my two friends,Fred and Hun,for having to take in whatever I threw at them. All those words I said,please just forget it.I'm just glad you guys were there to stop me. Anyway,my Silat team is so messed up right now.The team managers are like taking control.Where's the respect for us,the instructors? Who the eff are you to tell us off and to scold the students infront of the guests. You people are totally good for nothing idiots! Even if we are so much younger than you,you have to respect us because we are the instructors. I know how much you want us out of the team,but the team belong to us.We grew up with it.For some it's been 5 to 7 years. So far,this is the first time people like you are treating us like crap! Without us,will there even be a team? Just because you effing took the instructor's course doesn't give you the right to make the team yours. Remember this,Abang Razali brought the team up,not you! We became champions because of him. Now just look at the team. Do you think we are any where near to being a champion? Next,I officially think that things are getting complicated. Yes,I've noticed that he changed his status to 'it's complicated'. Anyone who's not blind would notice it. Sometimes,I do wonder to myself what went wrong. Communication,kinda obvious. Keeping quiet is definitely not a good thing but it's sometimes for the best. Sorry,if I hurt you. I didn't intend to. I know he notice that we're drifting apart. And I know how much he is trying to prevent it from getting worst. But sometimes,we just can't help it and just to painfully watch it happen. Please don't think I'm not doing anything about it. I'm trying my best too,but ut's getting out of hand. Try asking a clown if it is easy to juggle so many ball at a time. He difinitely say yes because he has lots of experience. Then again,it took him a long time to master it. I seriously think that juggling so many things at a time is a definite torture to one's self. Maybe,I need more time. Just give me time. Moving on.. I have to stop turning back.I cannot repeat the mistakes I made in the past. Think about it,it's never worth while.Breaking the habit,not an easy task.Going back to the old habit,it's way easier. At this point,I know none of my friends can help.It all lies in my own decision. All they can do is to motivate,but it's still up to us whether or not we're going to listen. Maybe if I just throw in the towel,my life would be so much easier. Then again,giving up has never been an option. Btw,I do miss my bro.No matter how much trouble he has caused,I still miss those days where he would share his stories and,in turn,I'll make him smile. Those days were so much fun. BUt then,those days were the past.It's never going to repeat itself.I'm never going to have the same relationship with him again,as bro and sis.There is such a big gap between us,right now. Anyway,I feel like counting stars right now,but I'm too lazy to leave the house(kak jun's house. Rewang. The boys are helping out at the kitchen.Yes,the kitchen.The girls are busy packing goodies while watching some indo drama. Me? I'm just sitting one corner,blogging and trying hard to control my fucked up emotions. No one is disturbing me at the moment because they know how I can be when I'm angry. So,this is it then.My post for the day.Sorry if you think I'm crapping but it's a better activity then *coughs*.Till here.I need to rest.Tmr's going to be an interesting day.Soccer game at Bedok with the Grasio-ans.I'm still contemplating whether to wear boots or just track shoes. I hate to choose! Damn! Taking care always.

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