Okae. Life's a little fcked up right now,at home. Ever since my mum decided not to have maid, things are turning upside down. She's complaining that we're not keeping the house clean and not bothering to help her do the chores. HELLO!!! who's idea was it to not have maid anymore,so suddenly summore?? I know we should not be depend on others,but she freakin don't understand that we're busy with our school stuff too. She complains that she's tired because she has to work and do house work too. It's your effing job! You want to depend on my younger siblings? They're still so young. Do you actually expect two 5 year olds and one 9 year to be able to keep the house clean?They're kids,messing up is what they do best! You don't have to go all lunatic and start throwing their toys around just because you're fcking pissed off at the mess they made. They're your kids for God's sake!

Do you know how much it hurts to see 3 of your younger siblings being screamed at and hit? They have no idea what is expected of them,especially at this age. Sometimes,I feel like hitting you back and telling you off,but I know I'm still your child anyway. I notice you only do such things when dad's not home. No wonder I hate to stay home when dad's not at home. You won't see me cry,but inside,I just feel like doing something crazy. At this point,I can only be patient. If things prevails and gets worst,I'm not going to sit there and watch like I used to. So much for a happy family,huh?

This is the reason why my happy pills are my friends. This is the reason why I prefer going out even though I know how much family bonding is so important. People may say that I'm leading a happy life,but do they know the source of it all? It's simply patience and the circle of friends I have to accompany me on my darkest nights. Then again,sometimes I do alot of stuff I know I shouldn't be doing. You may say that parents do all that because they care. Do they actually care? If they cared,they wouldn't be hitting you. Caning is common,but hitting you with things you're not suppose to use is simply not a caring act.

Shall move on now.I've been hearing alot of stories and seeing them.It may seem like I'm having a very hard time,but atleast I'm not as bad as those who even had family members killing each other. Sometimes,I just wished I could be living on my own,but then again,there are just too many responsibilities to handle apart from school.I guess I should just be patient now.

Till here..

Don't get me wrong aites.

I'm just so pissed off.

Taking care always.

PS: I'm looking forward to tmr. It sure is going to be a long day,but I'd rather spend the whole day outside than at home. cheers!