My heart may have shattered into a million pieces, but it's capable of shattering into a million more pieces and yet remain strong. I do not really believe in karma. Whatever that happens to me, or how bad people treat me, is like a practical lesson prepared by God. I don't expect God to punish those who treat me horribly. They were born, and given life by God, to test us and to prepare us for a tougher and harder life ahead of us. And the afterlife that we may suffer in due to all our sins and wrong doings. I suppose that's the reason why we should always think twice before doing or saying anything. God is watching our every move, and taking note of all our sins.

Nenek always told me that I should cherish this second chance to live, after the accident I had when I was 7. I could have lost this life that I'm still living. Nenek also told me that when someone is given a second chance, it is like a sign for us to make full use of it. Not solely on ourselves, but the people around us too - be it close or not. That is why I always put my friends ahead of myself. That is why I always give in. I know what it is like to lose someone you dearly love. I've lost both my best friends of 6 years. I cannot bear to lose anymore of my loved ones, be it closely related or merely a hi-bye friend.

I have to admit that I have trouble controlling my temper and anger, sometimes. It runs in the blood. And given the fact that I have the blood of a Bugis Warrior, I don't know the meaning of giving up when it comes to something I would die for. I don't know my limits until I break. And so far, I have not reach a point where I was going to break. A true Bugis Warrior, according to dad, is someone who is really stubborn, fight for his right, fight for his love ones, believe in going all out to achieve their goals, love everyone around them and is strong physically,mentally and emotionally. Oh, not to mention the strength that they possess. To the extent of broken bones healing faster than the usual rate. I take it as a gift. Everything I possess, are gifts from God that are to be used for good intentions.

Why is it, that I have to fall for you? I don't understand how my heart can withstand all these pain that you're causing by just simply being nice and caring towards me. You never fail to put a smile on my face. It hurts me even more, knowing you're crushed by your own problem. Knowing that you're upset and feeling really low, and that I can't do anything about it, saddens me. I want to be right there, next to you. I want to get rid of the sadness that you're facing now. I want to be there to turn it all round - into a smile. If only you knew how I feel. I don't want to tell you. I know it will complicate things even more, with you hanging at the end of a tread held by your very first love. I can only promise you that I'd keep this smile on my face, despite all the pain I'm going through and the problems I have to face. Just for you.